ytd was a v fun,angry,frightenful,sad dae for mi.went to lot1 in d aftrnn wif mama to get sum shoppin den went to mit dar at ard 6.everytink turned out fine whn we mit at d lib. i saw erni..i can only say she's a nice gal as i see.and my dar could hav chosen her instead of mi ... i duno.bt wat gone bad was d senting mi home part.as usual,he sent mi home n we went to d playground for sum fun aftr which ard 10+ i sent him back to d toh guan park.i didn't wan to sent him to d bus stop nt bcos im afraid of walkin home alone bt im scared tt i wldn't bare to see him go whn d bus come. so i rather we go on seperate ways dere at least im nt delayin his tym any further.

while wakin home,i kept turnin back to steal a galnce to check if dere's any sign of him.. bt to no avail.i can only say tt dere's 2 person in my body at tt moment.1 tellin mi to go back n find him n send him to d bus stop. 2nd telin mi to go home n call him to make sure he's safe. i might hav choose d 1st one bt if i did im being too selfish,tinkin only for myself n lettin him gg home late.so i went home n called him,for 1 hr,30 calls. bt he didnt picked up...my mind went wild,thoughts flowed through my mind.a car might hav knock him dwn or blah blah blah... im afraid so i called chong han to contact him bt stil he nv pick up...so hopin against hope i told my dad tt im hungry in order to go dwn n check whether he's dere,bt my dad dun agree on tt by sayin its late at nite its nt safe for a gal to walk alone so he called out to my mum n asked her to join mi.

on d way,as my mum was naggin d only voice i can hear is fear,nt hers.finally he msg mi sayin tt he's safe at home alrdy.at tt juncture i felt relieved n angry at d same tym. so i didnt rpy his msg nor picked up his calls. as i didnt noe wat to say or .... in d mean tym whn i reach hm wif my fish fillet i threw half of it to d bin as im nt reali hungry bt worried. den whn on9 to see if he's dere mayb chattin dere may b a bttr chioce.bt to my dissapointment no...so went to view blogs.at one which i hardly went. i read everytink dere n once agn my mind went blank.i didnt wan to say whose blog was tt.bt im only scared if one dae im gg to lose my dar,feelin rather helpless i chated wif my lao gong, june.im v grateful tt i hav her as my listening ear,givin my advise n all sorts.n whn all tt was done,i prepared myself n called him.we chated only a few wrds bt most was silence tt kept d cal ocuppied.at last,i ended d silence bt callin him to slp 1st as its late at nite although i knew tt both of us wun b slpin earli bt i jus hope tt he can gt enuff rest as his exams r comin.

dear,i jus wana say sry if i did put all d blame on u for nt pickin up my calls, i didnt mean to.dui bu qi.

yeap its a sat mornin, jus finish my breakfast,currently rotting agn ... Zzz im jus bored.

i started off my dae as usual,wif my mama's hands on mi calin mi to wake up .tried n boring dae . ytd went to pasar malam wif dar aftr which we den went to eugene hse.... mahjong! hahas! xpected. followin dar was unable to send mi home as its v tym consuming n its alrdy 7 + by then. stress stress stress.... exams are coming day by day ! n im stil on my toes ! omg ! guess i hav to wake myself up to study ! Zzz bt i hate studyin ... every nw n den d only tink i can tink of is justine here justine dere(flyin black pig here n dere) hahas =x sianz ... i hate sch days. currently pending to june's bbq ... bt b4 tt im gg to sit for my mt o lvl ppr -.-" u see hw d pprs spoils yr mood ? oh ya ! nearly forgot ... tdy dere's a fight in my class too. its seems more lyk a riot to mi .erm ppl frm d lower sec oso came =.= can say im jus watchin show dere ... well nth much to say.oh n went to d 100 yr old fire station for visit hahas... had fun dere. chated wif my lao gong june on bus while ken stepped on a baby cockroach ... XD tink tt's all for tdy .. bbye !

hahas reali had fun ytd ... can say yi shen nan wang de yi tian.
in d aftrnn dar dar come to my hse n find mi which shocked my half dead as my whole family is home .den went to je the popular to spend my $10 voucher given by d sch for achievin 2nd in d level last yr XD originally i was tinkin wat can i change for den sumtink caught my eye ... hahas d chi compo book .n d other hand dear chi wasn't so gd so it wil b gd if i had tt for him.subsequently i went on to search for d other stuff tt can mount up to $10.n d next tink tt went into my mind was correction tape hahas as i tink he dun hav 1 . following we went to d counter to pay up n stil we were left wif 55cents hahas so we took a candy which made it up to $9.95 clever ? hehez ..

aftr tt ym msg us tt d tym for us to go to her hse has changed to 4-5 pm ...in tt case bo bian we went to je to gai gai .den watch the forbidden kingdom .hahas its funny,n quite nice la bt sumtink weird is tt since whn d all d su mo kong n d chi monk speak eng -.-" we finish d show ard 4+ den we went straight to ym hse le.played wii at her hse .hahas can say im reali bad at tt .. bt had fun..abt 8 + we left her hse for dinner wif gabe ...den went to pasar malam. abt 10+ we waited for bus which dar insist in sendin mi home ...

in d bus we didnt chat much bt im alrdy content wif wat i hav nw. whr we go doesn't matter... as long as he's bside mi =) tt wil do. aftr alightin d bus we played piggy back as he promised mi to do so XD haha bt i abmit im reali of weight to him ... cos aftr tt he had muscle cramps =.= n mi too ... leg cramps. haha! n finally we reached my hse which means its tym for us to say gd bye which neither of us wanted. whn i reached home d 1st tink i do was to cal him.. n he said he had lost his way to d bus stop... so i whn runnin dwn for him to make sure he's fine as its late at nite ... alot of bangalas nt safe =x n dere we mit agn haha fast ? yeah...erm walked him to d busstop n he kip wantin mi to take a taxi home whr by my hse is jus a stone throw away... at d same tym he oso pushed mi $10 to make sure i had d $$ to go home by taxi =.= .... speechless stubborn rite ? bt jus to b frank im oso touched to noe tt he cared alot for mi.

dere's a common tink in us tt is we r nt clever n nt stupid . haha! nt clever in d sense tt we pushed $$ to each other jus to make sure d other ppl gt safe. n nt stupid in d sense tt we do noe hw to tink.once agn at d same busstop which we visited 3 tyms a day.we didnt speak much...n i can see tt dere is a sign of reluctantcy.n sumtyms slience is d best ans to all Q as we all noe d ans bt jus afraid to face it by ourself.n two 99 bus went off as he refused to take d bus.it was 12+ at tt tym.. n no bus le so d only way home wil b taxi .. =,= n its double charged . silly him chose to take a double charged taxi instead of a 45cents bus. n d reason for tt is bcos he wanted stay a lil longer.. bt sha de ke ai la .

on my side...dar if u r readin tis pls forgive mi.... i walked home instead of takin d taxi ... d $10 u found in yr bag is actuali d $10 u gave mi,i may seem selfish bt forgive mi i jus wan u to b back home safely. in d mean tym my dad was hurryin mi home.so i went runnin home frm je to toh guan ...which nearly took half of my life away jus hopin my dad wun gt worried for mi ...as usually he wil jus stop mi frm gg out tt late ... even if it is only 7pm. n successfully i reached home in 15 mins ... li hai ma ?bt i can tell u 12 mid nit in toh guan park was reali scary... nt a single ppl u can found n below my blk was a bangala wonderin ard ... damn scary ok? bt nvm its all over n im hapi tt i made it over ^^ only through tis i understand hw much i had alrdy fallen in justine lam de ai >.<

sry guys...had been bz tis daes so didn't manage to blog anw im back !
1stly ... dere's quite a couple of tinks tt hapn recently .. n d gd news is ... im finally tgt wif ******* XD meanin its tym to let u all noe hu tis is ... or mayb alot of ppl might hav guessed earlier .. ya its JUSTINE ! hahas shocked ? ok la ... jus hoped tt we can last long n im sure we will =) tdy went to jp aftr sch to mit him ... hahas wearin sch uni is kinda odd bt ... hahas nvm as long as im wif him ... den saw alot of jvs ppl pop up =.= ususally dere's nt much bt duno y ... aftr which we went to mit eugene,andy,rui lian n eric at jurong stadium for dinner at ri ben chun. n as per normal ym is bz wif her crp so didnt call her ... den aftr tt went to eugene hse a jiffy for sum true n dare game haha ! guess wat ? dear kissed d cardboard,door,wall, eric's back -.-" i shld say he mus hav been sway ... in conclusion its stil a enjoyable day ^^ laughed,joked,smiled .

ya im seriously fallin asleep in lessons,probably bcos im lack of slp ? tdy gt back my poa ppr ... gt 19.5/20 haha ! its seems to mi tt bloggin hav been my daily routiine instead of mi doin my sch wk. sianz ... thurs im havin my chi test,den tmr chem. bt its okay i noe all tis will come to an end =) b optimistic ! as the daes goes by ... it only mean 1 tink . my test is comin soon . dere's too much tink for mi to hope for bt i blive in putin my wrds into actions . and im gona strive till d end !! yey ! -.-" on d other side ... i felt tt mi n him had been closer tis days ... heez *claps pls.... however tis oso explained tt im relyin alot on him on tinks lyk msgin,fone calls.and im afraid tt 1dae i might nt b able to control myself frm missing him...guess im being too self-centered ...

i jus hope tt tym could stop at tt moment. i hope tt he could luv mi. i hope tt he could b wif mi whnever i nd him. i hope tt he's happy. i hope tt nth will pull mi away frm him. i hope tt i can seperate myself into 2 pieces so my mind wun went off wif him. i hope tt nobody wil object us. i hope tt i can b the 1st ppl to show him wats luv. i hope tt i can hav him everydae in my dream. i hope tt we can b happily ever aftr, i hope tt im his princess n he's my prince. i hope tt im his 1st n last gal. i hope to c him smile whn i feel dwn. i hope tt he wil b the one who save mi frm tis world to a fairytale once upon a tym. lastly.... if ******* is readin tis nw pls wait for mi at the heaven's cloud =)

morning everybody! hahas ytd went to eugene hse for mah jong agn ^^ bt tis tym round dere is a new member wif us. her name is called shu hui frm ju yin sec... cute lil gal i can say ... erm long hair,wif spects,abt my height XD bt unfortuantly ym didnt turn up ytd as she was havin her chi CRP.i reached dere earli. so waited at d voitdeck wif ******* hahas duno y bt i kept laughin whn ever i saw him .back to eugene hse... we played mahjong nt for long den went to da bao our lunch le.he treated mi alot bt dun wan mi to pay =.= u see weird ppl rite?gt $ dun wan.back to eugene hse i closed d door tried to stuff sum $ into his bag bt my plan has been spoiled due to those 2 ' GD FRENS' of *******. so he went to d room n puted d $$ back to my wallet. so i pass d $$ to shu hui n ordered her to pass dem to *******. a moment ago i saw it in shu hui's hand bt lata -.-" aftr i went home i found d $$ went back to my wallet agn .aftr which i send shu hui to pay up her tution fee we chatted quite alot n only by den i understood she luved him far more den i did.well mayb i shld jus consecrate dem hapily forever aftr. bt by now i hav discovered tt my feeling towards him has been built much bolder den b4,meanin its harder for mi to let go or shld i say i dun wish to? overall .. its a tremendous day .. had alot fun =)

Had been stayin at home since last wk.simply bcos nth interest mi.duno wats gg on bt feelin tt im losing myself.whn ever i feel lyk studyin i can't.my mind jus dun belong to mi any longer.well,bt to *******.im stil waitin for the tym to come whn i can pluck up my courage to tell him the feelings i had for him.however it seems to take mi forever =.= i admit tt im scared of him rejectin mi.through all d relationships i had,iunderstand wats d taste of a broken hart n surely dun wish to end up lidat agn.each tym i wanted to send a msg to him sumtink seems to b pullin mi back,tellin mi"hey u may disturb him in d middle of his wk,u irritates him!"is tis called '1 sided luv'? i suppose it mus be..or mayb i shld jus forget abt him n go on wif my life? dere's nv a rite tym to say gd bye perharps its tym for us to go on seperate ways.tis few days i had been staring at my fone jus to check if dere is a single msg frm ******* bt to my dissapointment no.is tis tellin mi to go? i noe i am nt being strong nor independent bt i jus can't help it,tt's y is called fallin in luv!