ytd,went to sch. aftr sch go je watch movie{pirates of the caribbean}. hahas quite a nice show bt i dun understand a tink as i nv watch 1. thn ate popcorn.go to take bus, on d way saw ee ting n kar ling. a few mins ltr saw j-min n her fren. so invited thm to my hse to pei mi {feelin lonely each day} ard 6pm+ my pa brought back A DOG !! hahas its a jack russel actuali, which shock mi. ard 6.30 pm joleen cal mi to acc her 2 a public dance show. which costed $10 , in d end i onli paid $5 as hahas im broke n joleen treated mi $5. heez thx joleen !! at 7,we met n take mrt 2 kallang. 9pm+ d show ended hahas bt we r alreadi half dead bcos of hunger. we searched high n low for food bt none was found-.- so hahs we go je eat KFC. thn we walk home.todae parents meetin dae, gt back report bk. eng c5. chinese U. e math A1. combined sci A1. (phy n chem) combined humanities U.(ss n hist)poa A1. comments : peiling is a quiet n polite pupil,she always does her best.she shows self-discipline whr wk is concerned n has shown interest in her wk.

todae i gt back my chinese paper ... i failed... hahas vv badly. hrm mayb im jus nt the 1 for takin o level chinese ? hahas i wil wk hard tis yr n see ... if i failed agn ... mayb i wil ask for droppin back 2 NA paper bahz ... in tat way at least i can pass. i was cryin n laughin at d same tym in d class. tinkin tat laugher wil stop tears frm fallin ? its nt true !! feelin reali bad tis few dae as... i tink tat im spendin alot of my pa $$ which i dun wish 2 ... my pa always put family b4 himself. he wld rather nt eat n tell us he's on a diet to buy us tinks .even tot he didnt say, bt i understand so i begin wkin hard for my studies as to make him hapi bt ... wat other ppl tink is tat im jus showin off.oso relationship prob has been pullin dwn my grades too... in co ... hahs even worst ... stress!! bt a gd piece of gd news.. hahs im tthe SL(sectional leader) for woodwind section hezz .. al tot i noe it wun last long bt hapi 2b 1 . studies... hahas lots of project wk comin to mi ... argh!!! n plus im d leader... den todae giv my members wk to do den dey start giv mi faces... dun dey noe tat im doin even mor thn thm ?? bside tis project i stil nd 2 do another for my china trip for presentation. feelin tat ... if dey dun lyk mi thn jus tel mi i wil let go of my positon. 7 mor daes to china...

todae gt back my chem paper le :]] heez i gt sec in class ... 41/50... haiz jus 1mark difff n i can gt top le bt nvm overall im stil top hahaas.... gd gd [glads] hrm aftr sch went for oversea briefin thn went home wif felicia ... feel vv ps 2 let her wait for mi jus 2 acc mi go home ...reached home ... 1st tink eat 2nd slp thn bathe nxt on9 hahas. the day ended lyk tis ^^

hahas d dae tat im leavin s'pore wil b comin in 9 daes tym !! hrm i wil b missin each n every of my frens, family, cousins badly. oso i wil b briingin my diary along too. hahas tinks wil b recorded each dae. tink by the tym i come back ,thr wil b lots of story for u all le xD for my suo na ... erm abit woriin. bt nvm i wil try my best.sch was as per normal... slackin in class... playin tic-tac toe ,gt bacck my english paper 2 ( 47/80) which is nt v well done n math paper 2 (37/40) hahas top !! yey !! n poa (43/50) hahas top too!! so in total nw i hav my phy top , math top, poa top bt ss n history(13/30) failed... haiz diff of 2 marks. so nw im stil left wif chem , mt and english paper 1. aftr sch ... went je n jp wif felicia hahas brought a necklace. den on d way home saw cheong mum ... so mi, felicia n cheong mum compared our results hahas. for 'him' hahas i hav tried my best to let go.hopin 2 see him in d airport,althought i noe its impossible bt i blive in miracles.just wana say it out b4 i go ,i reali missed d days. if i was given a chance 2 travel through tym, i wil stil choose u.

ltr goin 2 bugis wif my fren, to buy a present for my bday fren . feelin reali bored nw . jus finsh my breakfast. the weather todae is quite sunny. my 99 harts bottle is stil wif mi .. nw nd 2 plus 51 le. wanted 2 giv 'him' d bottle de tgt wif d ring. bt hahas jus se bu de bahz. d ring has been wif mi for 10 months le. ytd recess tym planned to go 2 his class to giv him bt half way tot hahs i turn back... duno for wat reason... den aftr sch i msg him to meet mi outside d lib , bt he didnt turn up so i went outside his class waitin for him. he walked away wif his frens whn he saw mi. at tat moment i understand d whole story , so i walked away wif d bottle in my hand. it was d last present im givin him i tel myself bt hahas guess tis present wil nt b delivered le bahz. 1 mor wk left n im leavin s'pore. i reali dun wish 2b in harm for him anymor. so i decide to step out of his life.mayb its oso a tym for us to take a break.aftr all tis, haahs im feelin reali tried le bahz. if tis is his chioce thn i tink i shld respect it.

todae i gt back my phy paper (37/50), math paper 1 (47/60) , paper 2 nt yet noe. ss (9/30), hahas i failed. i was being mistaken by 'him' bt no1 noes onli felicia ,she blives mi n noe tat wat i was sayin is true.i was being mistaken to flirt wif my class de malay bois hahas. todae while i was walkin 2 my math classroom , 3 of my class malay bois went up 2 mi sayin tinks lyk , u gt so high marks surely gt cheat wan lah, copy other ppl wk, change ans de lah. i didnt cared abt thm much as i tot all tis is nt true so i jus smile back. thn dey begin sayin dey saw ' HIM',which i dun blive. so i jus said 2 thm dun lie . bt whn i turn over , i realise wat dey r sayin its true. i was hapi 2 see him bt at a lost, duno wat 2 do so i jus hurried to my classroom. aftr my math class i was tinkin of msgin him n tell him d gd news tat i gt top for both math n phy. bt whn i turn on my hp,i saw a msg frm 'him' which says tat our frenship end tis moment. i told myself nt to cry whn i step into my class bcos i noe i cant afford to cry anymor. so i jus went 2 my sit quietly.my frens begin calin mi to join in wif chat as dey tot tat i was being ps by thm. i started to rpy his msg by askin him y n tellin him tat i gt top for phy n math as i tot tat its bcos of my results tats y he's tellin mi all tis.he replied mi n says tat its nt bcos my result n repeatin we r nt frens frm tis moment onwards.finally i lost my control of myself, tears started rollin dwn my cheeks.my frens being askin mi wat has hapn, bt i told thm nth.the bell rang n i went to find felicia for lunch as we agreeded on it ytd.she too knew nth as i onli told her tat mi n him are nt frens anymor.until he msg mi agn.. whr i started 2 cry agn..thn i told her everytink. she consoled mi by saidin tym wil heal everytink n perhaps he jus nd tym.she patted mi on my shoulder n said mayb cryin out wil make mi feel bttr.i cried continuously til my eyes were reali in great pain so i stopped. ltr we went to co for ur normal practise. i was wonderin ard to find a place for myself as tcher haven reached , bt everybody hav alreadi start practisin. i was d onli ppl takin a instrument called suo na . todae i told tcher tat i wished 2 change instrument bcos im havin too much stress n oso i dun hav d courage to take such a instrument. suo na its d loundest instrument in d whole co n im d onli 1 playin it plus if i played d rong tune,every1 wil noe n feared tat every1 wil blame mi for spoilin d whole song .bt tcher didn't agreeded abt mi changin instrument, he said tat i can play it v well n oso its a chance for mi to learn 2b confident in myslf as he always tot tat im lack of self-confident( bt tats true as he's nt d onli 1 sayin tat)in d end i choosed to stay at suo na as i dun wish to giv up so easily.although i noe i wil b havin a trough tym.and i wanted to learn 2b independent tis tym.

morning 7.30am... hahas i wake up .. thn on 8++ go on9 , on 10++ hav breakfast nxt go out wif felicia. todae actuali we meet at d busstop whr is 2 busstop b4 my sch bt ... -.- hahas drop dwn a busstop ltr. so bo bian hav 2 walk back a busstop distance bt nvm la hahas helps mi burn my fats.aftr meetin felicia we take 99 bus to a childcare centre as felicia say she is givin sumtink to her fren. nxt we went jp tot walkin hahas 'sweats' . reached jp ard 12++ thn decide to watch d movie called 200 pound beauty . so we brought d tickets n ltr we went to d pet shop haahs .hrm saw alot of cute cute de animals thr hahas n my fav doggie too bt hahas my fav husky being sold out le ... sob sob . at 1.35pm d show start . haahs its reali a vv nice show n oso hhaas alot of ppl cried too... lyk felicia ... nearli used d whole tissue box hahas. so aftr d movie felicia come my hse ... ard 6++ i send her home .. :)

finally, all my tests are over le hahas . bt haiz 2dae de poa tink i wil nt perform so well le bahz ... inside d paper thr's 1 question tat cos mi 21marks n my paper is onli 50 marks. -.- plus tat question i nv do as i went for obs camp thn no ppl infrm mi abt tat . its so unfair !! i dun even noe wats tat ... bt everytink is over le so thr's no pt for mi 2 tink abt it anyway , tinks wun change .hahas bt stil hapi tat paper is over. 2dae mi, jia min n karling went imm agn ... hrm as u noe psp., Unfortunately its being book by sum1 else . hahas so we went shop shop thn my hse. aftr karling left , mi n jia min went 2 play see-saw hahas thn swing . we stayed thr till 4 ++ so its a tiring dae indeed. so i walked home aftr d swing game hahas. halfway tot , hajjaz msg mi n asked mi whr am i , so i rpy and asked him whether he gt drink a nt ... its reali a hot dae. as his shop is jus opp he treat mi a drink hahas ^^ last tink of d dae, i went home.

ltr... meeetin my cousins at je for sipderman 3 ... hahas yey!! long tym nv go watch movie le ... hrmmm tmr is math paper nxt on tues is poa paper ... hahas all nv study ( die die le ...) oh!! n todae is mother's day hahas so im goin 2 reach thr earli for my mama de present n ... find a bottle for my 86 harts folded. haiz actuali wana fold til 99 de bt ... run out of straws thus nd 2 go n buy straws le ... sianzz ...dun b mistaken !! all tis harts is nt for my mama ... bocs im goin oversea frm 30/5-12/5 thn on 13/5 goin star cruise :) tink i wil b missin him bahz... so all tis straws... hahahs is d last gift i giv him bahz ...tot tat on tat day mayb i could c him in d airport ... hopefully bt haiz he tat day gt oral ... sob sob

today... i went to library to study wif jia min , xin ying. thong leong n ju ying hahas. i reached je lib at 11.30 as mi,jia min n xin ying decide to meet thr for ur lunch 1st , bt .. -.- it turn out tat i reach thr on tym bt i was d onli ppl thr. 15 mins passed, jia min came thn 5mins ltr xin ying came. so we went to je de kobayashi for ur meal hahas bt we turn out late to meet thong leong ... so poor thong leong waited thr for 5 mins .. thn come find us xD ... aftr ur meal ,we went lib for studyin ... study study study !! hahas , nxt ju ying come join us ... at 3 mi, jia min n xy went popula n thong leong , ju ying went for their dry swimming at thong leong hse hahas . mao mao .. as ususal, went slpin aftr reachin home haha ...

on 11 may mi, jia min, kar ling and ee ting went 2 imm. hahs 1st we go to eat la mian ( which cost mi $12++) hahas hart broken .. nxt, we went 2 shop shop . thn , we went 2 best denki to play psp hahas. haiz bt im d poorest 1 lor... cos i dun lyk all tis tink ma... so bo bian mus stand thr c thm play for 1 hr ... hahas leg pain . bt in d end i oso end up playin hahas. at 3+pm jia min come my hse , ee ting n karling went city link hahas. so everytink was quite normal ^^ heez nth went rong.

tym passed fast , real fast. it has been 2 months n 14daes since i break wif him . through all tis tym .. i wished to thx my frens hu is always being thr for mi whn i nd sum1 for acc. thx my frenz !! n especialy felicia :) ... u reali wake mi up ... sry tat i cant 4gt him n concentrate on my studies bt i wil try my best 2 gt gd results . i wun let u dwn . through all tis tym i learnt tat luvin him , thr's alot of ways , nd nt always b holdin on to him n lettin him by yr side ... i wan him to be hapi... i wana see his smile. i wil learn to let u go. in d past, i always dun hav d guts to walk away frm wat we had ... bcos i noe tat u wun come back for mi. i noe u are nt d rite shoe for mi bt i stil choose 2 wear tis shoe even tot it hurts my leg bcos i hav been wearin it since i bought it.and dun wish 2 change 2 a bigger shoe size as i always tot tat it is d best shoe for mi.my feelin for him increases as days passed by.. one day, i lost my shoe... im lost n confused. i duno wat to do n tink tat thr's no way i can go home without my shoe bcos i hav always b dependent on him. so i waited n waited 4 my shoe 2 come back even tot i noe it wun. until 2 months n 14days ltr, i decide 2 walk home without my shoe. i learnt 2 put dwn my pride n tink tat mayb i can find a bttr shoe tat i can fit in comfortably. thus, i walked proudly home without my shoe... on d way i met alot of obstacle n hurt my legs. bt i stil walk home proudly wif a smile on my face bcos im proud of myself, im proud tat i hav d courage to do tat thn others.im proud tat i can walk away frm my past n start all over agn, rather thn waitin meaninglessly. i learnt to b strong, independent and oso d memorises we shared 2gther ... i wun throw thm away jus bcos it reminds mi of my past.. instead i wil face it n treasure it .. as i noe he wil b the only guy i wil luv in my life n the last too . if you reali luv sumtink, set it free. if it comes back,its yrs . if not thn it wasnt meant to be.

todae aftr my hist paper , went out wif j-min n xy for breakfast at mac. hahas thn aftr havin ur breakfast we went imm. haiz bt alot of shops still nt open yet .. hahs so i invited thm to my hse as imm is jus a stone throw away distance frm my hse.at my hse hahas tym passed v fast... ltr on,we went jp wif bus 187 for ur lunch. bt tinks arent always rite on mi ... we saw lots of crockcroachs n tat reali scares mi alot. poor xy being squeeze by mi as they come closer hahas. at jp we had ur lunch at bento box hahas. erm miss d food thr. especially d soft shell crab its reali nice n d pizza too. lastly.. hahhas thx xy n j-min i reali had fun ytd :) n j-min dun wori abt mi le .. i hav cried enuff nw its tym 4 mi 2 smile ^^