PEILING 's WORLD (:

Twins - Wo Hen Xiang Ai Ta

2011-05-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

empty heart.

2011-04-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

In the blink of an eye, it's my second year and 2nd week in np!! Guess im better somehow , at least not being late for classes anymore. :) It's surprising how time can fly sometimes through the good and bad times. But im sure there's always someone who have been there for u all the while. :) This motivated me to do something while i still can. Not knowing when im going to leave this world, but im sure i wanna leave with no regrets. :) Went to clementi mall with my mum today as my lesson starts at 4pm(got some lessons cancelled). Treated her to crystal jade as an early mother's day gift..and now my pocket is in a hole ~

holiday is over

2011-04-17T22:56:00.004+08:00

School is starting tmr and i don't even know if im ready for it. So here i am blogging again ~ Things are better these days i guess. Hopefully it will still goes on fine when school reopens too. i had been staying home for quite some time now and i find that home is the best place to be at times =) You know when they say home is where a person's heart is and a shelter for you. Watched the movie "Scream4" with Fadhil yesterday at the cinema. Its not bad afterall. =)

Too many things i wished that you know, understand.

you smile i smile =)

2011-04-17T17:16:00.007+08:00

This is a lil cute post i would say =).. Well sometimes in life u just need to find something that could bring a smile on your face to pass your day. Being different need not always be a bad thing, just that people don't see things in your point of view. So here's something to share with you guys.. Whether you're feeling moody, exhausted or tired of life don't give up! If it helps you to be yourself . =)

back to one

2011-02-27T19:39:00.004+08:00

Hey blog! Seems like i have been neglecting u for a long long time, well what can i say im here now =) For the people who might be wondering why i haven't been blogging, here's the reason why. Say it im lazy or somehow i kinda feels tired. I used to think that blogging is a way of letting things out and remembering things like what a dairy does. But somehow it just defeated its purpose now. As I've learn to take life as it comes. =) Many things are so unpredictable nowadays, including relationships which are so fragile. And for the people who knows me, i like to stay away from the ones that i wouldn't be going along well with just to avoid trouble. Sometimes i do think that without handphones or computers perhaps life will be better. People will cherish each other more, and appreciate their existence. Things will be less complicated as it is now. Don't you think so? Talking about that, friends. I do treat my friends with my true feeling but sometimes i just need time on my own. And maybe it would be better to leave me alone when u feel like im faking a smile or just to ask if im fine. To my close friends if i have done something which upsets you, tell me. I would try my best to change. But talking about this only true friends will do this i guess.

Hello world
I hope you're listening, forgive me if I’m young
for speaking out of turn.
There’s someone I’ve been missing.

Just have a little, patience.

2010-03-11T03:12:00.011+08:00

I'm still hurting from a love i lost.

I'm feeling your frustration,
Then maybe all the pain will stop,
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight.
Don't be to hard on my emotions.

Cause i, need time.
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while im still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again,
I know u wanna be my salvation,
The one that i can always depend,

I'll try to be strong, believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me,

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while im still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Yeah, have a little patience,

Cause this scar runs so deep,
Its been hard,
But believe me,

Have a little patience.

wake up call.

2010-01-07T01:11:00.014+08:00

2010 has finally arrived!! Hmm.. thinking back how long have i been waiting for this year? hahas just hope tt this year everything will turn out fine for me. =)And just a lil flashback for what i have been doing recently. Went for d 2010 count down at raffles place with chin hong, andrew, xin hua, candice n her bf. Must say tt the fireworks there are extremely beautiful XD after which we went back to jp to catch Avatar, another nice movie!! Reached home at 7 in the morning.
2 Jan 10
Met boon jie at jvs busstop to pass him starhub invoice and off to meet chin hong. andrew,xin hua and Jeremy at jp for dinner. Saw teck koon working at Fig & Olive so decided to eat dere. Following we went to arena for some pool session hahahs! And so cabbed home n reached home at 3.
3 Jan 10
Went to replace my Qad ying mei for work at plaza sing from 11-9.30pm. hahahs but was late due to insufficient amount of sleep lols !! So home sweet home after work.=)
4 Jan 10
Stayed home for rest. But unfortunately got a call from my aunt at 2am while i was watching tv, saying tt my uncle went into coma.. so wake my mum n dad up n stayed up to call my bro at 5.30am for sch.
5 Jan 10
Went to work at jp. A guy got my number, become friends, den came to know he is also staying ar toh guan, even thought we nv saw each other, a bartender.
6 Jan 10
Stayed home for rest again. =) Below are sum of the photos taken during ying ying's wedding dinner(23/12/10) so... Enjoy !

already gone.

2009-12-22T15:34:00.003+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted?Now all our memories they're haunted,we were always meant to say goodbye.Even with our fists held high,it never would've worked out right. We were never meant to be.I didnt come here to hold you.I just want you to know that it doesn't matter.When we take this road someone's gotta go.And i want you to know you couldn't have love me better.Looking at you makes it harder.But i know that you've found another.Perfect couldn't keep this love alive.But you know that i love you so,i love you enough to let you go.

my heart is aching.

2009-12-20T12:12:00.004+08:00

Maybe you are changing for the better, but i don't feel like i know u any longer. Maybe its better for things to turn out this way, at least you are happy now. Maybe i should have told u this earlier but it's all too late.

be my escape.

2009-11-22T02:50:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from cruise ytd and my legs were aching like hell !! Guess it must have been a bad idea to wear heels on board.. However i did enjoy myself dere ^^ For a quick touch up of what we did during the 3 days.. On 18nov, my dad drove me tgt with chiao chen n xin hui to mit the others at harbourfront centre. As we reached there ahead of time, we went to Mac for a lil snack. When everyone has turn up, we went to Q to get ready for boarding. By then our stomach is alr groaning in hunger. Hence we played True n Dare. Certainly there were alot of pranks n fun hahahs ! Jus to share some of our punishment, yenting were asked to smell all of our feet n rate them from the best-worst, Yihan n Xin hui were to hold hand til one of their names were called n me... were to eat a mixture of some disgusting sauce =.= And the 1st tink we did aft boarding the ship was to eat hahahs ! Following with tt, we went to Lido for performance.And later went touring the whole ship, n went to bed at ard 2am in the morning. The next morning we woke up at 6am to hav our breakfast, and my dear xin hui was slping away hahas! aft which she went back to the cabin wif chiao chen to get sum slp while me, yenting, kai ting, kar ling n yihan went swimming. Back to room ard 11am to get ourself prepared for lunch. Went to buy jackpot tickets but only karling won $20. Well beta than nth at least one of us wins =) We alighted the ship at 2pm n went down to Malaysia port whr it only consist of 1 shop =.= so we went back to our ship aftr half hr lols.Next went for our aftnn tea session hahahs! n lata kai ting,yenting,yihan n karling went to nap. Soon it was dinner time agn lols went for our dinner n went swimming agn wif diff ppl, chiao chen, xin hui n yenting. Went to bathe n join the rest to Lido agn.Later, we went for the chocolate farewell party at the deck of the ship with music busting away.Then we went for buffet at deck 12. And went to kaiting's cabin to watch Disney channel hahahs ! Woke up 7am the next morning n had our breakfast.Rented golf n went to the deck.Aftr tt we went to rent twister hahas! Had our feets n hands crossed. n soon its was lunch =) aft tt we went to pack our belongings n prepare to alight. Think i will have to stop here, let the pictures do all the talkings good night!

one way ticket.

2009-11-03T13:51:00.014+08:00

In the midst of my O levels now, so far things had been good for me as i can say. Well mayb except for ytd, was late for my ss pp =.= Giv me a shock at first when i reached concourse n saw no one there. Thus rushed to classroom n luckily d pp has not yet started .. whew...3 more papers to go!! And goodbye to all the sufferings!! Below are some of the pictures taken a few days back, had been gg to the lib lately for revision =)

it will take time.

2009-09-20T11:52:00.004+08:00

you will find your way =)

every picture has it's own story to tell.

2009-09-18T14:02:00.002+08:00

Its raining cats n dogs tdy. Went home straight aft sch. Got back most of my prelim pprs except eng compo, math ppr 2, phy n history. Sad to say i did failed all my ppr currently from wat i noe other than my poa which gt 32.5/40 for pp 1 n 57/60 for pp 2. Whereas for my eng, i did assume it to b a fail as i gt 15/30 for functional writing, 12/25 for compo n 13/25 for summary. And from wat i rmb, i only wrote 190 wrds for my compo lols. Math was another disappointment for me, our whole class failed our math ppr 1 n i got 29/80! its like 3 times of my mark compared to my express class juniors who scored 60 plus. Next to come was my ss ppr. hahahs well i tink tis is d lowest score among all (i hope), 12/50. For chemistry, i tot i scored but seems like nth is gg on my way. Got 27/40 for mcq, 11/15 for practical, 36/65 for pp. This jus show how far off im from my O lvls ...

Your best friend was once a stranger.

2009-09-15T21:40:00.008+08:00

Prelim is finally over! Whew... but what's more to come is my O lvls. A summary of what happen for d past few days. ^^ Went to the lib on sunday n imm for dinner. Pictures are below so jus help yrself by scrolling down =) On mon i had my chem ppr n joined xinhui n zi cong to mac for breakfast as it was stil early. Went back home lata on. Received presents from my aunt who jus came back from japan!! guess she mus hav understood me alot, even brought me lavender eye packs, quite touched actually =)
Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down.

everybody else.

2009-09-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

Time check! Its 12.15am now... n surprisingly peiling is stil awake!! Had been slping late recently as im having nightmares nowadays sobs =( i wonder wats wrong wif me now, jus cld'nt gt d motivation to study. N guess wat? For this precious 1wk holiday i cld not even gt a day out for studying!! gosh ... bet i will b dead on monday. Tdy was quite a packed day for me, played carom wif my bro n his fren in the aftrnn and went out wif mama lata to chinatown.(forgot to bring my hp out -.-) Had our dinner dere and went to the pasar malam a stone throw away from my hse =) Ytd went back to sch for chem aftr which mi, xinhui, zi cong and jeff went to jp for our pepperlunch!! Following with tt, aftr our pepperlunch me n xinhui went bugis for our shoppin while jeff n zc went to d lib. And finally the day b4 ytd was d day i fainted. Rushed in d morning to mit my fren wifout my breakfast to westmall as we planned to catch a movie but im late. Was running until i came to a stop at d traffic light area n fainted. N for the rest of d day, stayed at hm. Wednesday,meet up wif my Qad Ying mei at jp lata which gabe n tengyin came along. We went to city hall den marina square. (shopping!!) And had our dinner at bakerzin =) some pictures to share ..

The little hart of mine.

2009-07-24T22:07:00.002+08:00

I was born on a Saturday and since my birthday...

I've been living for 17 years

I've been living for 210 months
I've been living for 6,390 days

I've been living for 153,362 hours

I've been living for 9,201,774 minutes

I've been living for 552,106,476 seconds

My heart has skipped more than 644,124,180 times.

blogg-ing

2009-07-19T21:43:00.012+08:00

Aftr MIA for so long peiling has decided to come back to her blog le !! Well nth much happened recently so nth to post. Life nowadays was like a living hell to me. Mon-fri had to stay in school til 5pm and for my beloved friday, had to come back for nite class til 9pm. =.= she's tired tt's all i can say. Having no tym even for slp !! Wif so much work left for her to be done, she jus feel lyk dying lols. But tinkin of all d holidays ahead, dey r jus my pillar of strength tt im holding on to =) Ytd when to celebrate my ah jia bday n emily's bday hahas its jus nice to hav dem all ^^ went to orchard taka den cineleisure. Aftr which i acc shu xuan to jp for sum shoppin n others went clubbing except for my sweethart hu went hm for her "hairy pot-er" lols !! here are sum of d belated photos n d photos we had taken...
The End .

my deep blue sea~

2009-06-15T13:11:00.042+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO MY LAO GONG !!! XD finally she turn 17 hahas ! ok la dun laugh at her le .. lata she scold mi lols ! Ytd went to sentosa for her advance bday celebration as she's nt free tdy. Woke up in d mornin n the 1st tink i realise was I'M LATE ! it was alr 10.30am in d mornin n im stil in my pyjamas!! Whr im suppose to get to habourfront at 11am -.-" reached dere at 11.40am (tt's d fastest tymin i can gt dere lols). Aftr reachin sentosa, we changed to get wet while i stayed on land wif han zheng n a few others as we didnt bring any extra clothings. So i went on taking photos for others hu r in the waters whn i notice a bangala along wif 2 of his fren,was pointing his phone camera at me.Went back to tell lao gong den she called everybody up shore.Den Adrian n jan hong went up to comfront dem.(more lyk pickin up a fight) we called dem to stop bt to no avail,luckily peifen n others went to stop.Dey said sry bt photo stil in their phone lols.Lata june say wana refer d case to police whn the bangalas alr walk off.Lata den dey rmb my pic stil wif dem ! So all went aftr those bangalas wif only mi,han zheng,weilin bf,sze ya n amanda to look aftr d tinks.wait wait wait n finally dey r back.dey said d bangala hp gt my whole body pic ! wtf. bt nvm deleted alr jiu hao. Gt sum nagging frm lao gong n rest of our day continues =) Lastly, wana thx adrian for his seashell XD thx you !

2009-06-12T11:33:00.014+08:00

不知不觉中，3个月过去了。

每天晚上我都在想，为什么我们会轮落到这个地步？

是我做错了什么吗？还是你已经不爱我了。

其实有些问题，只需1 分钟的时间就可以得到答案。你相信吗？

我曾经单纯的以为只要两人彼此相爱就可以在一起。

以为只要把所有关于他的东西删除了就可以把他忘记。

可惜我错了。我只是在逃避问题。

没有勇气去接受事实的真相而已。

我把爱情想的太伟大，却忽略了现实生活中问题的存在。

回头想想，就算他回到我的身边，

我们还可以像以前那么爱对方吗? 他会开心吗？

还是这一切只是我一个人自私的想法呢？

与其这样，为何不让他去寻找他要的幸福。

或许这样他还会开心一些。

虽然偶尔还会相念我们的过去，但爱得起就要放得下。

谢谢你所给我的那些美好回忆，至少我知道我曾经是幸福的。

想要告诉你，想念是会呼吸的痛。

它活在我身上所有角落，哼你爱的歌会痛，看你的信会痛，

连沉默也痛。后悔不贴心会痛。

恨不懂你会痛。想见不能见最痛。

做不成情人，做朋友也不错吧？=)

it has been a long day.

2009-06-10T15:12:00.011+08:00

Yohoo!! hahas as requested by my dearest june lao gong,shall update aftr takin such a long break =) hrm guess u all are wondering wat am i doin during tis period of tym ba ? Well im watching d Taiwanese drama 败犬女王. For ppl hu hasnt catch tis show yet, i really urge u all to watch it. Its reali a v touching show n trust mi, it wil change yr perspectives against 姐弟恋. Had family lunch at a turkish resturant ytd wif my ah ma, cousins, aunt n so forth. hahas jus d tot of it makes my mouth dripples lols !!! following went to causeway pt metro great s'pore sales as suggested by my mum. skipped my dinner as my stomach was stil full. lastly, my lao gong bday comin in 5days tym !! hahas cant wait to get to sentosa tis sun for d outing with my sweethart, nu er n my gal frens !! XD
You wish to stay in d past,bt u noe u cant. You wish to have him back bt you noe it wun hapn.

She dun wan anytink,dont u get it ?

2009-05-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

Had been sleeping late recently, panda eyes r hunting mi down sobs. Got back all my MYE pp alr, all i can say is, its disappointing. will be starting my tuition during d june holidays. sianz frm pri sch had been attending tution til sec 3 due to my poor results in d past.(especially math, i hate it !) Tinks are troubling mi tis few days, im feeling so sick n tired yet i cant help it. GOD SAVE THIS GAL PLS! she dun wana b in luv anymor. it hurts too much. Stayed back wif jeff n sandeep (n mr teo whom we asked to join us for awhile in our conversation lols) tdy to discuss abt poa, while waiting for d pouring rain to stop. saw wei jing n zi cong lata on n left nt long aftr. Wanted to watch angels n demons bt stil haven made up my mind if i shld watch as O lvls is 3 months away from mi !!! Oso stil tinking hu shld i call to join mi. Sumtyms i do wish im nt the peiling now, bcos d strong n cheerful her had long gone.

how about a story ?

2009-05-22T10:29:00.003+08:00

On little more than rumors and lies, Franciso Vazquez de Coronado traveled up from Mexico in search of Quivira, one of the seven legendary cities of gold. For years, he and his army pushed to the north. Many of his men were killed. Disease, bitter cold, and marauding tribes all conspired against him, but Coronado persisted.

And when, at last, Coronado found Quivira, his disappointment was too profound for words. The towns of Quivira were little more than thatched huts and fire pits. And so, Coronado simply turned about, leading his army back to the south.

What Coronado couldn't have known was that he had been within feet of a hidden underground passageway to the only city of gold there ever truly was, the true genesis of every imagined golden city and every fountain of youth: the kingdom of Isidora.

The Quivira tribe had not told Coronado because they knew that, even if they had led him into Isidora, the gold he had sought would be useless. The truth, known only to the Quivira elders, was that gold was the least of Isidora's treasures.

The real treasure of Isidora was the nature of the land itself. Once a man arrives in Isidora, he will not remember the value of gold. He will not remember the value of anything, for what matter. From the empty streets of its ancient, golden capital spreads the land of Isidora, a land without memory, where every need is met and every sadness is forgotten.

dedicated to all my loved ones.=)

monday-bluez

2009-05-18T20:16:00.003+08:00

School started as per normal tdy n as usual i "rushed" to d bus stop. Tinking tt 187 will b late, i decided to walk to 98 bus stop. Bt lata end up regretting as half way through.. 187 pass mi ... wth. well at least i didnt late for sch, if yes i tink my OM gonna kill mi alr. hahhas has been late consistently for 6 tyms. Got back my math pp 1 tdy.. damn dissapointed. tot i did scored cos i find d pp easy bt .. hahas 42/80. tink im gtin a tuitor soon during d june holidays. haiz. aftr sch went jp to hav my lunch wif chiao chen, sandeep n jeff at jp in subway. went home aft tt, fell aslp in bus n woke up wif a knock on my head -.-" so pain. reached hm n went for my nap hahas! woke up at 7plus n skipped my dinner.. such nice weather ~

finally im ready wif my pics =)

2009-05-17T15:47:00.041+08:00

whew.... finally done wif uploading my pics =) ytd nite went to JW stadium for jogging... jog till i now muscle ache =.= aftrwhich zi chao came n we chat chat chat till i reach hm hahas! bt oso hav to apologise to him as he sent mi hm den he no bus hm Zzz ... nxt tym i hav to kp my mouth shut le .. hahas n the day before ytd went to Kbox at marina to celebrate my dearest hua hua (SHU XUAN) big day XD oso HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY !! well hope u did enjoyed yrself ^^ aftr celebrating her bday, initially wanted to go hm bt i ended up at pioneer stat. hahas. den frm dere i walked to 99 bus stop for bus hm. guess i went to visit my long missed mermorises agn. stil rmb zi chao tot mi a very meaningful sentence, "we can't go back to d past for d present has change it " =) thx zi chao u tot mi a lesson n i will rmb it by hard.n here goes all d picx......the drink store =)The nite scenery outside esplanet (duno hw to spell) bt its damn romantic n we saw lots of couples.. well if i did hav a bf in d future i confirm bring him dere XD it writes "please apologise when in the wrong" =)Zi cong u r caught on d camera!! My pretty kangli (from d left), kar ling, kai ting ^^Shu xuan n emily =)eh sth dere ?MY CUTIE PIE !! (she's gonna kill mi agn hahas!When tinks gets broing for mi ~

emo emo ~

hehez can u find mi?

Last of all to end tis post, the sweet couple =)

2009-05-17T14:41:00.002+08:00

Rules and regulation of the tag:All 20 people must do unless you don't have a blog.Write the names of 16 friends you can think of in your head,And then answer the questions,Say you're guessing if you don't know,But at least guess on all of them.After doing this,tag your 20 unlucky friends to do the same.

1.Ying mei
2.Chiao zhen
3.Zi chao
4.Kangli
5.Jia li
6.June
7.Justine
8.Le ting
9.Pei fen
10.Yen ting
11.Shu xuan
12.Tze Qin
13.Gabriel
14.Shawn
15.Joleen
16.Cassandra
17.Rona
18.Jmin
19.Shi peng
20.Mei mei

1. How did you meet 7? (Justine)-At 1st in friendster den bugis.

2.What would you do if you and 15 had never met? (Joleen)-Impossible ba she used to b my neighbour n closest fren =) (moved hse)

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Meimei n ying mei)- I wld go bang wall.

4. Have you seen 17 cried? (Rona)-erm i tink so ...

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (Cassandra n Kangli)- No lesbians pls

6. Do you think 11 is attractive? (Shu xuan)- yes she has a kind hart =)

7. What's 2 favourite colour? (Chiao zhen)- Orange =.=

8. When was the last time you talked to 9? (Pei fen)-Thurs in sch .

9. What language does 8 speaks? (Le ting)- chinese? lols

10. Who is 13 going out with? (Gabriel)- Teng yin ?

11. Would you ever date 17? (Rona)- no? i nt les pls.

12. Where does 18 live? (Jmin)- Near my sch ^^

13. What's the best thing about 4? (Kangli)- she's damn cute !

14. What would you like to tell 10 rite now? (Yen ting)- good luck for yr coming O's !

15. What's the best thing about 20? (Mei mei)-She understands how i feel =)

16. Have you ever kiss 2? (Chiao zhen)- no but soon XD

17. What's the best memory you have of 5? (Jia li)- She always call mi meat meat =.=

18.Whens the nxt time u gonna see 4? (Kangli)-Tmr?

19. How is 7 different from 6? (Justine n June)-1 used to be my lao gong another 1 is my current lao gong ^^

31. Have you gotten into trouble with 8? (Le ting)-hahas my memorises wif her only contain d good ones?

32. Would you give 19 a hug? (Shi peng )-eh no ? if i did i tink he wil tink im crazy lols

33. When have you lied to 3? (Zi chao)- No.. i tell him almost everything hahas !

34. Is 11 good at socializing? (Shu xuan )-i tink so she's friendly?

35. Do you know a secret about 8? (Le ting)-hahas ya! we used to shared our secrets!!

36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18. (Tze qin n Jmin)-- Total strangers to each other .

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? (Pei fen)- She's my nu er ! =D

38. What's the worst thing about 6? (June)-never giv mi $$ =x

39. Do you have a crush on 12? (Tze qin) - she's my cousin -.-"

40. How long have you known 2? (Chiao zhen)- since sec 1 ?

41. Does 11 have any girlfriend/boyfriend? (Shu xuan )- nope single n availdble hahas !

42. Have you wanted to punch 1 in the face? (ying mei)-no ? never =)

43. Have 20 meet your parents? (Mei mei)- i guess so whn she came my hse ?

44. How did you meet 11? (shu xuan)- School :)

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? (Zi chao)- No! Ofcos i won't ^^

46. Did you live close to 7? (Justine)- No bt i wish to.

47. What's 8 favourite food? (Le ting)- hahas she kinda eat only vege ?

48. What kind of car does 1 have? (ying mei )- Toy Car :P

49. Have you ever travelled anywhere with 9 before? (Pei fen)- East coast park counted ?

50. If you gave 14 a $100 ,What would he/she spent on? (Shawn)- i tink he wld save it up =)

Tagged by Le ting.

mid-year over !!

2009-05-14T14:41:00.003+08:00

Woohoo!! im back!! hahahs ytd woke up at 1am jus to find sth to eat -.-" hungry till i can't slp, i bet u will b surpised if i told u i went to bed at 10pm. hahahs! had my last ppr for MYE. so siok!! i reali cant wait to get to d june holi now. actuali sum tinks hapn d day b4, bt is nt sumtink present so .. it jus teach mi to value watever i hav now =) u noe, u wun b able to tell if u were to lose a ppl tt sudden. n ytd my "cyclin machine" arrived!! hahas can start excerise le! XD

mother's day <3

2009-05-10T13:15:00.013+08:00

Jus had my breakfast n woke up from a nightmare which brought mi to tears. Omg so scary ... anw lets see wat ppr im left wif for my MYE, math pp2, phy n my sci MCQ ... n june holidays!! XD n now a brief summary of wat i did ytd...went to East Coast park wif my nu er Pei fen, jia li, yen ting, hai xiang, adrain, cyrus , lao gong june n kar ling joined us in our lata part of d journey. Reached bedok ard 2 n had our lunch in d market den off to get taxi. upon reaching, i finally saw wat i wanted to see for so long ... d great expanse of d sea!! i really missed tt place much, n d sea bleeze... everytink is jus simply nice =) Following, we went to rent our bilkes hahas at d same tym comparing d rates. At last we finally make up our mind to choose d bicycle shop which oso provide roller blate rental cos dey say dey can giv us 3hrs of rental at 2hr fees XD so aftr choosing our bikes we went cyclin. Intially, we planned to cycle to OCH bt due to d tym shortage.. we only manage to cycle out of east coast.. ard area H as my bike was found faulty earlier n thx adrain!! He actually went on d extra mile to cycle back n change a new bike for mi. Must b hard on him as i can see... d bike is much mor smaller den his due to my size.. no laughin! well bt i noe u will so nvm =) im short i abmit hahhs ! proud of myself ! Went pass all d same old roads which i last went inorder to gt to och...mermorises certainly were brought back to life. I jus miss my past, it all seems to b perfect. Although it was raining tt tym he stil insisted to cycle mi back, in his arms i felt so secured. It was nt a short journey n it took us 4hrs!! so can't imagine hw tired he was ba =) bt he made it through. well tt's d past..back to d present, lata on we decide to go to d jetty instead as we can't gt to OCH .. sadd.bt aftr all, i did had alot of fun.enjoyed myself ^^ weird post i noe.. bt jus look at wats bhind us ! hahas aunty cyrus taking a photo of our bikes!my pretty yenting n peifen =D ate their sweets ? hahas !

and tis is cyrus wif his 'sweet pose" hahahs !

yen ting, kar ling n jia jia ! XD

pretty yen ting agn hahhs! u are caught in d camera!

The nice sea view.

My jia jia always gt her own weird post hahas !

Me n my lao gong !
n lastly grp photo !!( with 2 guys missing n 1 at d back =.= )

MID-YEAR EXAMS !!

2009-05-04T17:21:00.002+08:00

Jus woke up from nap ... so hot til i cant slp anymor =.= Had my eng ppr tdy, althought i found it easy bt i stil flunk d ppr. hahas! cos of d damn gd weather outside which makes mi so slpy... oso thx to ytd tt i didnt had a gd slp, woke up in d middle of d nite 1am plus to swtich on my air-con (cannot ta han so stuffy!) and readers u will see mi on9 mor often as i wana kp myself bz rather den having my mind wonder off. So do tok to mi!! hahas. n tmr is my hist n ss ppr wish mi sum luck? Gonna hav my dinner now. bbye!
All the broken dreams, take everytink, jus take it away.

Had a bad day.

2009-05-03T09:10:00.003+08:00

Jus woke up from my ugly slp hahas as my eyes were swollen now. Tdy wil b a start of everytink new =) found sumtink missing? yup Justine. I have deleted everytink abt him. Msn, Friendster, Facebook, Blog n most imp hp no. Not bcos i hate him or tinks lidat. It's bcos i'hav learnt to let go. Mayb tinks shld'nt even b tt way. well i jus dun hav d courage to do it in d past, but im tryin hard. Talking is cheap so i'll put dem into actions. ^^ heez... mus b wondering y out of d sudden i gt back on track rite? it all hapn ytd. n i was told by my horoscope reading ytd was my "lucky" day. But in fact i felt lyk ytd was my worst day ever, tinks cldn't hav been so wrong. I quarrelled wif my mum. she cried, so did I.(but definitely nt infront of her, i noe she wld nv wana see mi cry) so i went out of my hse. Tinkin whr i shld go, my legs brought mi to the playgrd. I sat dere long. Wondering wat hav i been doing all tis 17yrs of my life, n i realise y am i always dependen on others? i hate it. i reali hate it. Bcos whn d one im dependen on left mi, i felt so lost. Or perhaps it's teachin mi a lesson, tinks wun always go by yr way, accept the way dey are. dun b obstinate. In the end, im always getting hurt. went hm 1hr lata. Took d quiz "What kind of gf are u?" hoping tt it might tell mi whr i went wrong. Bt it turn out to be 100% perfect =.= now u noe y i say its my worst day ever. Bcos tinks jus didnt turn out d way dere shld! n den whn i see my fren result, sorry u are nt d perfect gf ... n she's in a bgr now while im broken. i doubt dere's sumtink wrong wif d qiuz. Following another "debate" occured. I dun wana say wat is it n i blive d ppl oso dun wan mi too. And tis tym round, it reali cuts deep into my soul. It jus show wat type of ppl am i to u. It dissapoint mi. For all tis long, u dun even noe mi. U noe wat? it's not everytink tt u tot is true. Put yrself into other ppl shoes. wat for do i wana do tis. THINK pls. I dunid other ppl to pity mi. I have my own pride. n from here on, sum1 called mi out. I mus say i nid to thx tis ppl. Nt only tis ppl help mi got my math done, it free mi from wat i wana run away wif. U see, aftr all it was reali a tiring day as i cld say. i wana hav a min free. Ard 6plus, my dad drove to my hse here de void deck de study corner to fetch mi for dinner at lot1. Aft dinner, went hm n came On9 agn. The story doesn't end here. It only gt tinks more complicated. As i found out d tink which i was always lying to myself. I wun say how i gt to noe bt i dun wana noe! bcos tis tym round im nt sure if im able to take it. sum1 jus save mi pls. As soon as i came to my senses, d 1st tink i can tink of is to forget him.althought i noe tt's nt possible. Thus, i started to delete everytink abt him. Subsequently, i off my com n went to bed. Tears engulf mi. When i was abt to off my phone, my sweethart, chiao zhen called mi. I can't help it but confessed everytink to her. I love u baby! At least i noe dere's sum1 in tis world hu cared n understand mi. It's d longest phone conversation i had wif her. n long b4 tis, she actually knew tis was gg to hapn , she told mi to let go bt i didnt, i kp telling myself he wld come back 1 day. Hahas sayin tis i felt so stupid n foolish of myself. I regreted bcos im hurt now. I always do my best i can in tis bgr, bcos i wun wana lose d one i luv agn. i dun wana make d same mistaken i made 3yrs back. Bt no matter how hard i try, it all turn out d same, all sayin i left u bcos i didnt cherish u. Aft i hung up d phone, i did try to slp bt u noe i can't. so i spend d whole nite crying. I cried nt bcos i noe im leaving bt to all those memorises i noe it wld nv come back. I cried nt bcos i noe i hav lost to myself, bcos i noe i hav tried my best bt tinks jus dun turn out d way i tot dey wld be. I cried bcos i reali luved him. The end .

dreams are always dreams.

2009-04-30T21:59:00.003+08:00

Had my practical exam tdy. i can only say i jus flunk dem both. speechless. Its weird to find yrself unable to study whn u nd to study. I jus hope i can find my motivation to study agn..
All these beautiful mermorises, wif u by my side, must be a gift from heaven that's holding mi through. i duno how i found u but im thankful tt i have.

Believe in yourself. U can.

2009-04-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

Everytink started wif a blurr. i woke up in d morning, brushed my teeth, put on my uniform and off to sch. It was d same tink i repectedly do everyday. Upon reaching sch, i realised dere is P.E tdy =.= bt too bad i had forgotten to bring my P.E attire. So during our P.E lesson i was called up by tcher, together wif xin hui n chiao chen. he started d conversation by "come here! who give u all d permission to nt P.E? n sumor u r the chairman of yr class! imagine how the rest of the teachers wld tink if dey saw u all sitting ard while yr other classmate r having P.E! come on la save mi some face pls."All of d sudden, duno y but i did shoot out all my tots to him and become d spokeman of my 2 frens "we tot dere is no P.E tdy so didnt bring our P.E attire as we r having our exams tmr." He replied "if tt's the case why yr classmate brought their P.E attire and not u all? u mean all tis 4 years in school u duno to bring yr P.E attire whn u hav P.E lesson? or even if u r nt told so u r to bring it along wif u?" answering to his Q i said "all tis 4 years or even last year we were not to hav P.E lessons 2 wks b4 our exams." so he rpy " every year d scheme is diff. and wat u all gt for yr nafa? tell mi la. did u all passed? " and i was tinking since d scheme is changin every year how am i suppose to noe whn im nt being told! and moreover my classmates r not mi i dun not hav their brains n noe wat dey r tinkin wat! wat does it hav to do wif mi! so i jus told him "i passed." n tt's all,tried of exp tinks to him. bcos in d lata part of our tok, he is jus basically repeating himself. i guess tcher's r all d same, unreasonable.bt i agree wif chiao zhen, so far i did only noe 1 tcher hu is nt lidat.n tt's our class mentor mr mao =) he did hav fun n joke wif us bt whn its tym to get seriour he wil b strict. or whn he noe he's wrong or at fault, he did apologise to us. i jus simply love his way of treating at the same tym teaching his students.(althought we always bully him) hahahs! gt my MYOB cert in the lata part of d day while having our POA lesson.n it shocked mi most whn i was called n i gt DISTINCTION !!! as it is a computerise course n my com broke down jus the day b4 my exam =.=. aftr sch went back hm, wanted to stay for ss remedial bt frens all go hm so go hm lo .. anw if i were to go i wil hav to wait for another 1hr for d lesson.n dere agn, sumtink struck mi in bus. as d temp was rising, i can say i gt irritated easily. plus d bus was so packed. i reali hate it whn aunties kp pushing mi whn dere is alr no place left.r dey blind? can't dey see dere r still ppl infront of mi? so i did rush to any sits tt r available inside of being pushed alr.aftr 20mins ride,finally d bus had arrived at my stop. i was waiting to gt dun whn d uncles bside mi we hurryin mi. n kp sayin 'y r u blocking mi 'but the pt was, how do u expect mi to squeeze through ppl whn dere's so much of dem infront of mi. so i jus told him "im gg down oso" thought i didnt sound friendly bt at least i manage to suppress my anger. den home sweet home. while listening to my songs, i recalled wat my mum told mi a few years back. u can't hold on to sumtink on your hand, while wishing to have another when yr hands r alr filled wif tinks. lil did i realise she was telling mi to take tinks one at a tym. tink tt's all for tdy. getting some rest soon. nites.

i have tried my best.

2009-04-28T18:07:00.002+08:00

Ytd was my prelim oral, hahahs nt sure if i did well bt 1 tink tt i noe was i sound real shaky ... Zzz ok lets nt tok abt tis anymor (it doesnt change anytink). For the past 2 days had been slpin in class, tink i was reali affected by the weather, as u noe it had been rainin consistently XD guess i dun wana miss a chance of having a good, nice slp. Life nowadays totally bored mi out. i can only tink of pepperlunch during lesson tym hahhas guess im addicted to it..jus hope d holidays can come earlier. i can't wait to enjoy my life now .. hahas as ppl always said youth is d loveliest tink u can ever hav ^^ n i surely dun wana miss anytink out. On d other hand, my dad's bdays r oso coming !! hrm.. wat shld i buy for him ?? well ppl if u do hav any suggestions pls kindly tag mi =) i will appreciate yr kindness hahahs ! tink i will hav to stop here once agn .. bt nevertheless i will update u guys soon ! so wait for mi !

hello people! im back!

2009-04-25T11:46:00.007+08:00

hrm...whn is the last tym i hav blogged? 4 months ago? i tink so ...cos my blog now seems to be dead n dry.well..wat reali hapn was my com spoiled n therefore no bloggin.however,tinks on my side wasn't gg v smoothly as i can see...but i noe it's only d matter of tym =) ytd went to jp wif my family as my mum is getting herself a cyclin machine(duno if tt's wat it is called) basically d wan u saw in gyms la ...waste $$.bt nvm la since it's bought i oso can do excerise while watching tv XD n jus found out tt d weather is getting bad to worst ...so hot!! i hate it omg ... i perferred rainy days... so cooling~ nevertheless everyday to me is a different day =D jus finish reading my older posts hahas i miss the days! wondering if i can ever be lyk d past...carefree.oh ya! n found sumtink interesting lately..hahas! ever met sum1 wif d same name,same bday,same age of yours? i do! she's called ang pei ling =) bday 25/1/1992.see... everytink is possible.jus a summary of wat i did tis year..(for photos pls visit my friendster or facebook) went to my 1st picnic wif my frens(all gals) aftr which we went town to gt sum shoppin den off to pub XD enjoy myself whn im wif dem..dey r ppl hu cared abt u,stands by u whn u nd a shoulder to cry on,enjoy life to d fullest,n dey r called friends =) also .. special thx to my sweethart sun chiao zhen !! she had been my listening year for all tis tym...i can only say im glad tt i hav found u.^^ it has been a long post.. guess it's tym for mi to stop here...so wait for my next post beloved readers!! bbye !

Dere is only 1 question.

2008-12-22T12:11:00.003+08:00

Tell mi is dis really what u wanted ?

If u don't like wat you r getting,change wat u r doin.

2008-10-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

Had been gg out alot recently ...feel so tired ...hahas !
hrm 1 wk mor to my O lvl chi ... haish...
whn can i reali take a break frm sch wk ?
n even worst nw d gov is promotin life long learnin... =.=
Tuesday 28/10/08
went to d tour agency tdy for sum do's n don'ts whn i gt to korea
reached hm ard 5pm n went gym-ing wif my kor
hope i can really turn my fats to muscles hahahs!
Monday 27/10/08
Met kenny n sheng hao tdy to go causeway pt to collect my chi dictionary
frm farhan as i lent his gf for exam purpose.
was so hungry even thought i ate my lunch/breakfast at home on d way dere
hahahs tink my digestive system is wkin too hard.
Followin we went to junction 8 for sum shoppings!
ate our dinner at yoshinoya n it cos mi $5.6 per bowl !!
nt inclusive of any drinks... i abmit im reali broke.
hahahs reached je ard 8pm n went to d pasar malam near by to shop
walked hm aftr tt.

what's love ?

2008-10-25T19:02:00.003+08:00

and i said,
romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
i’ll be waiting, all there's left to do is run .
you’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess.
its a love story baby just say yes.

Went to my yoga class today ... hahas finally i make it through without a rush.
met meimei at imm to find if dere is any job vacancy left.
bt to my dissapointment it turns out to b a failure ...
hahas wana guess d reason ?
dey said dey r hiring a 17 yr old part timers =.=
feel so unreasonable ... if u tell mi u r findin a 18 yr old its ok i can understand.
bt im 16 n jus a 1yr gap !! hahas nvm let's drop tis topic...spoils my mood.
has been a long tym since i last went out wif meimei...
miss d tyms we spent tgt.wonder whn will b our next outin ...
well hope it wil b soon ... as im sure whn sch starts i wun hav tym left .
oso if u r readin tis all d best for yr upcoming exams =) gd luck !
will update agn.bbye !

This is for my ppl hu jus lost sumbody.

2008-10-16T12:19:00.007+08:00

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady.

Put your hand way up high cos We will never say bye .

As a child there were the times,I didn't get it but you kept me in line.

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes..

On Sunday mornings, and I missed you.

But I'm glad we talked through.All them grown folk things,

Separation brings.You never let me know it.You never let it show.

becauseYou loved me and obviously.

There's so much more left to say..

If you were with me today face to face,I never knew I could hurt like this.

And everyday life goes on like"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but I try not to cry.As time goes by,And soon as you reach a better place. Still I'd give the world to see your face.And I'm right here next to you.

But its like you're gone too soon.Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done.

And you never got to see me back at number one.

I wish that you were here to celebrate together.

I wish that we could spend the holidays together.

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night.

I thought you were so strong,You'd make it through whatever.
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever.

Tuesday 21/10/08

Today is Kenny kee's Bday !!

hahahs Happy 16th Bday!! may all yr wishes come true =)

went to sentosa to celebrate his bday. well can say its my 1st tym dere by train ...

cos everytym i go sentosa by bus de hahas !!

Ym dun blame mi for nt calin u along hor...its bcos u r havin yr O lvls.

mit up wif kenny n sheng hao 1st as we stayed near to each other.

reached habour front to hav our breakfast den to vivo.

Lata li xin came n joined us for lunch hahahs we r so ke lian til we go 7 eleven for cup noodles!!

had fun playin d volley ball,sun tannin n swimmin dere...

ard 7 it started to rain =.=so bo bian we went back to vivo to mit Zach ...

ard 10 plus .. hm sweet hm.

Monday 20/10/08

Went to imm to get sum stuffs for ym den off to gym wif kenny..

on d way dere suddenly recalled tt mr mao called mi to go sch to gt sum stuffs.

so alighted at jvss.bt whn i reached sch ... he said a guy had alr helped mi to take le..

wasted my trip dere.. so took 99 agn to gym.

aftr we finish our gym session,went to ym hse to pass her her tinks n home sweet home .

Ard 9pm mit up wif cheong mun to collect d tinks he take for mi ..

hahhs wat a thoughtfull guy isn't he ?

As he stayed near mi so we went for dinner aftr tt..had a nice chat wif him =)

Sunday 19/10/08

Went to watch d movie Max Payne wif bjorn n shi peng =)

Saturday 18/10/08

Went for my yoga lesson tdy den headed to bugis as Tze qin wanted to go dere for a walk =)

Friday 17/10/08

mit up wif ym to do sum shoppin at cineleisure as we both nd to buy our frens bday present.

Thursday 16/10/08

Went to watch butterfly lovers wif cassandra at westmall.

hahahs i guess i was d only ppl hu laughed in d whole movie while d others r cryin XD

Wednesday 15/10/08

Went back to sch at 9am for my chi.saw hajjaz on my way to sch on bus ..XD

had a nice chat wif him n found out tt every1 ard mi seems to b wkin alr ..

omg .. hahahs mayb i shld start findin 1 for myself le ..
ard 12pm ,home sweet home.

Tuesday 14/10/08

Rested at hm.muscle ache..

Monday 13/10/08

Woke up at 6am tdy hahahs ...guess wat ???hahas its my photo shootin day !!

Mit gabe at his hse den khai seng finally turn him up ...n he was late =.=

Den tgt we took cap down to mit broderick n his fren.

its a 3 hr photo takin ... hahs bt we only used 2.5hrs of it ...

d rest was used up for settin up n all sorts...

Aftr tt took taxi hm to his hse n slacked dere for awhile.

Ard 3plus we went seperate ways hm to go gym lata on.

lata ty,farhan joined us too...

a tiring day indeed.

Sunday 12/10/08

Left cousin(Tze qin) hse n went to ym hse to lent her short for photo shootin tmr.

Saturday11/10/08

Went to je wif my mum n bro to mit up wif my cousin tze qin n aunt.

it was an outin tt we cousins organised to celebrate my bro belated bday.

Went to changi airport terminal 3 to mit d others.

which include lin xun,lin ting,xiao gu,da gu n my grandma to eat swensens.

Following,we went to da gu hse to rest.

den my daddy came n we went for our dinner..

Aftr which my dad drove grandma n xiao gu home den mi n tze qin to her hse to stay overnite =)

Friday 10/10/08

Rested at hm today...went to gab hse ard 6 to discuss abt d contract.

A wk ago i was being asked by a magician to b his assistant in performance.

Had been a long way whn i finally decide to join his company =)

Thursday 9/10/08

Woke up earli to mit june,han zheng,shu xuan,chiao chen,kangli,jia li,yen ting xin hui...

bt end up i was stil late =.= so dey went off 1st left wif june n han zheng .

den tgt we took bus to mit dem to buy d tinks we nd for bbq lata on.

upon finishin our shoppin , it started to rain -.-" hahs wat a luck !

so mi ,june,han zheng,chiao chen,xin hui n shu xuan went to mac to rest 1st b4 we continue our trip to east coast while d others went to pei fen hse to help out.

Bt to no avail..it was stil rainin bt nt as heavy la .. so bo bian we walked to bus stop to take bus.

reached east coast late as pei fen dey all tgt wif karling n kai ting alr reached dere ahead of us despite we started our journey earlier...

Ard evenin yong jun dey all came n joined us...

Left east coast at 10 as sum of dem r stil havin exams tmr !!

so we went seperate ways by cap to d nearest mrt station.

june lao gong n han zheng lata decided to send mi hm ... hahs so touched !!

whn we reached je guess wat ?? hahas we saw june de bro hu kp calin mi chi hua hua!!

so we headed to d 24hr openin Mac to hav a chat..den tgt we walked to my hse de playground

to slack ..den hm sweet hm .=)

Luv VS Hate

2008-10-04T16:49:00.025+08:00

hahahs jus woke up from my beauty slp ...
ytd went for my yoga lesson as ususal.
everytink was in a rush as i totally forgot its a sat =.=
luckily my dearest cousin called n my bro woke mi up on tym.
went to my cousin hse aftr tt for lunch.ard 4+ went home .
went out agn at 8 + to watch gei tai wif my lao gong june !
n surprisingly saw sum1 whom i didnt met long ..kenny key !!
hahas my pri sch mate .
Friday 3/10/08
went out wif ym,see mun,gabe n ty.
hahas i duno wats hapnin to mi bt makin mi feel emo day by day.
omg i hate tt ! and d worst is im stil hopin against hope for a msg frm him.
bt everytym it turns out to b only dissapointment.
Lookin back i reali wonder if tt was a punishment given by the god to clear my sins.
or shld i say wat goes ard comes ard ?
hahahs nw i truely understand hw my ex felt whn i told him i wan a break up.
its such an irresponsible act tinkin back hw much harm i mus hav cos him.
it mus b hard on him den.bt d hardest part was nt abt lettin go.
bt to maintain tis friendship even aftr a break up.
and at d same tym stopin yrself from fallin in luv wif him all over agn.
ok.. come back to ytd,we went to bugis de LJS for dinner 1st.
followin wif tt,went for sum shopin at bugis street.
Ard 9,we took mrt to orchard to continue our shoppin XD.
hahahs bt whn we reached taka,most of d shops r alr closed..
so we went wisma to mit up wif gabe n ty bcos we went seperate ways along d way
due to d stuffs tt we r buyin.n guess wat ??
hahahs we saw a gay behavin lyk no1 else business dancin at d entrance of wisma.
=.= n i can assure if u were to c him d 1st tink u wana do is to run.
Next,we went to take bus 143 home.
N lastly,Happy bdae to Bjorn soh =)
Thursday 2/10/08
it was finally ym bdae todae.Happy 16th bdae to u =)
went to d kbox to celebrate her bdae.
n since tt its over,its ok for mi to say nw hahas!
well,in d 1st place,mi n ty has alr settled our conflict bt nt yet to tell u.
as we hope to giv u sum surprise lata on.
2nd,we actuali knew tt ty is joinin us along jus tt bcos of d surprise so hid d truth frm u XD.
its always d 4 of us since pri do u rmb ? gabe,ty,mi n most importantly u.
3rd,we oso brought a bdae cake specially for u.
In conclusion,hope u did lyk d presents n all tt we hav prepared for u .
we LOVED u.^^
Oso went for sum pool session aftr our singin =)
Wednesday 1/10/08
Went to mit up wif jasmine today to do sum shoppin trips XD.
And d 1st stop is ... bugis !
Initially,we intented to hav sum beef noodles.
bt wifout knowin it was closed,we walked quite a distance dere.
n reached dere wif quite a dissapointment =.=
so we end up havin our lunch at KFC n off to bugis street.
once we r done wif our shoppin,went to starbucks for sum drinks n relaxation~
hahahs which is agn.. a distance away.
went to take mrt aftr tt to jp to buy sum bdae presents..
enjoyed myself n will b pendin for our next outing =)

Back on track.

2008-09-29T13:00:00.004+08:00

Tinks r getin much beta nw.im contented wif my life =)

It's true we don't realise what we've until it's gone,

but we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives, yes?

had been gg out consistently enjoyin my life hahas !
ytd went to lib wif Ting wei n Chin wei .as per normal went to tuitor dem chem n phy .
And tt Chin wei nearly cost mi half of my life to exp tinks out,
bt hope tt dey did understand wat i hav been teachin.
Aftr tt went to west mall to mit Bjorn n his fren to catch a movie.
On d way dere saw lester n his family hahas!
had a nice chat wif him =)
Saturday 28/9/08
went to d lib,jp,dinner.
Friday 27/9/08
Went to sch tdy as it was d last day of sch so dun wish to miss anytink.
attented poa sub den home sweet home.
Thursday 26/9/08
Didnt manage to go sch tdy as i overslept due to d gd weather =X opps !
Wednesday 25/9/08
Joined my dearest ym out for buyin presents..
however i only helped out wif d wrappin part XD.
A tiring day indeed.. hahas
1stly,she came to find mi aftr sch at my sch side gate,
den we went for our lunch at yuhua dere de market ..
hahhs i tink it has been ages since she last whn dere aftr leavin pri sch.
recalled our sweet memories we once had.from dere we headed to my hse.
hahas we r perspiring lyk hell wif d sun above us.
Aftr reachin my hse we slacked a lil den off to imm.
hahas! guess we do hav alot of stamina.as we walked dere agn.
Aftr finishin buyin her presents,we went to je by walkin agn as it was jus a stone throw away.
And finally aftr tt whn back to my hm to start our wk.
Had dinner at my hse as my mum had cooked our shares.
Lata i sent her hm as we take bus 99.
Guess wat reali matters mi most was d return journey,if u understand mi.
Passed blk 707,i kinda saw wat "we"once had.
Well in d past,he nv fails to send mi hm no matter hw late it was,wat it takes.
reached hm ard 11.30pm.

The higher u climb,d harder d fall.

2008-09-21T10:24:00.004+08:00

I’m old enough to have known better,but too young to care.

Ytd went to lib wif chin wei...
hahas was kinda awkward as its only d 2 of us and no one was free.
was teachin him chem n den we heard sumtink regardin a story tellin session.
and guess wat ? hahas we didnt pay much attention until ..
we get to noe it was jus bside us =.=
stayed til 4 plus and went to visit mutu.hahas !
well... d place is stil d same as i last visited.
nth has changed bt the ppl bside mi.
it jus feel so weird eatin prata dere wifout him bside mi.
or mayb i shld say im used to him being dere for mi.
hav u ever felt tt everytink u do reminds u of sum1 ?
bcos tt's hw i felt.

Sometimes,I wish I could turn back time,
and do the things i should have done,
speak the words i should have spoken.

If.

2008-09-18T03:42:00.001+08:00

牵手和分手来自同一双手.

做回朋友我却为何不懂挽留.

你能体谅我有雨天, 偶尔胆怯你都了解.

过去那些大雨落下的瞬间, 我突然发现谁能体谅我的雨天.

所以情愿回你身边.

此刻脚步会慢一些.

如此坚决,你却越来越远...

是否太晚路已走远 ?

我的眼眶泪太满,走不回你身边.

sunny day !

2008-09-17T09:30:00.002+08:00

Jus came home aftr my POA mock test,had been filled wif activities recently ...

Well lets start wif ytd den,

went to jp for lunch aftr sch wif shu xuan.

As we were tinkin of wat to hav for our lunch ...

hahhas we were asked to do a survey for pizza hut .

so as u noe,a ppl lyk mi,havin a kind hart,agreeded XD

In d survey we were asked to try the"chirstmas pizza" (which is nt out yet)

and comment abt it ...

And to my surpise,its nt jus 1 pg of d survey bt 6-8pg of dem =.=

hahahs bt in total its all worthwhile la ...

we get to try d pizza,and oso gt a $5 voucher for pizza hut.

Aftr which we continued our shoppin trip =)

den went to lai lai to hav our lunch.

SUNDAY 14/09/08

its mooncake festival !!! hahas went to my cousin hse in the aftrnn.

after which we went for our family dinner at hendersen ....

nth much to say bt a fun day indeed ^^

SATURDAY 13/09/08

well...as usual went for my yoga lesson in the aftrnn.

hahhas bt quite sad to say tis sat n nxt sat wun b havin any yoga lessons.

as tcher was tellin us we will b havin a "break" bt still nd sum practises at hm .

Followin wif tt,went to my cousin hse for lunch.Ard 8pm lidat,joined chiao chen,shu xuan,

jia li,xin hui,ee ting,kar ling,kai ting,wei jing,jia le,ken,yi han,yong xian,zi cong for our

"mooncake festival celebration" enjoyed ourself dere =D

FRIDAY12/09/08

joined chiao chen to clementi town sec for fun fair at nite =)

Single bt nt available =)

2008-09-09T12:15:00.001+08:00

It has been the longest tym without you.
I didn't know where to turn to.
Tink somehow I jus can't forget you.
After all that we've been through,
the tyms we shared our laugher tgt,
the tyms whr i jus hope tym cld stop n appreciate wat we hav,
the tyms whr u cycled mi in d rain.
All tis has alr become part of mi.
If you didn't notice you mean everything.
But all I know is Im gonna be ok.
Thought I couldn't live without you,
it's gonna hurt when it heals too,
It'll all get better in tym.
And even though I really love you,
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to.
I have tried my best.Forgive mi.

such nice breeze..

2008-08-28T09:20:00.000+08:00

hahas currently in luv wif the weather now ....
so coolin ..such a good weather for sleepin XD
2 more days to go !! hahas n my holi is finally here !!
i jus can't wait for d holi to come ..
on d other hand, also hope tt dar can reali score durin his N lvls...
(same goes to june n ying mei n all my frens hu is takin their exams tis yr =)
n due to the coming N lvls, i can only see my dar once a wk ...
so sadd...hahas bt came to tink of it,
if tt's all it takes for him to score ... its worth it.
for my yoga,its startin tis sat ..
jus wonderin hw wil d instructer b lyk...
well as from wat i know frm my previous yoga lessons,
its mostly d indians whom hav been coachin mi...
tink im stopin here le ba .. wil post whn im free,bbye!

im wif u all along,rmb ?

2008-08-22T11:15:00.000+08:00

hahas recently decided to post.hrm.. tinks are getin back on track now
days seems to pass by fast....hopin den holiday is here to come...
bt b4 tt i wil hav to sit for my O lvl chi agn =.=
thx to my B3 i hav to retake it .
oh n ya tdy is kang li bdae .. so HAPPY 16TH BDAE ! =)
oso im being selected for an interview tmr frm visiter outside sch ..
currently tinkin of wat shld i say ...
in a blink of eye,1 n half months lata i wil b celebratin mi n dar de half yr ani le !!
wahahahs ! and 1 dae aftr tt,wil b mi n my lao gong (june) den 1 yr 4 months ani ...
hehez ... bt im sure tis tym round pocket gonna hav a big hole .
pending for both days to come .. can't wait to celebrate tt !!
n in a month's tym dar gg to hav his n lvl le ..
(a wrd of encouragement for u ... jia you ! i hav faith in u)
n for june lao gong (study hard .. i wil b aways dere for u if u nd mi )
tink i wil stop here ba .. continue whn im free..
tons of hm wk stil untouched ...hav a nice day.

can i say i nd sumbody dere ?

2008-08-01T15:55:00.000+08:00

Ppl always say frens come n go.

tinks tt r hapnin ard mi are weakening mi day by day.

tellin mi to stop holdin on to my belive,dere wil nt b 4ever frens.

or shld i say i hav finally wake up ?

i jus feel disgusted by the other side of tis world.

hw abt a story instead ?

lets call tis ppl A.

A has been a fren of mine since pri sch.

Though we might nt b close,bt i stil considered A as my fren.

As tym passes by,we gt closer day by day.

until 1 day,i found out tt all tis was a lie.

A might nt b kind in wrds at tyms,always calin mi short,makin fun of mi.

bt i didnt put d blame on A or rather jus 4gt abt it,4yrs.

on d other side,all along,A had been sayin tinks which were opp of wat A said infront of mi.

and even tinks tt i wld nv ever expect to come out frm her mouth.

if 1 ppl told tt to mi,i may nt blive and choose nt to blive.

i reali do hope tinks aren't tt way and certainly nt frm her.

bt mayb im wrong.its nt 1 ppl.bt lots of dem.

and d day had come.

sitin opp of each other,face to face.

if A you are tis nw,u shld noe hu u r .

d part tt im reali dissapointed abt is nt tt u hav been sayin tinks bhind my back.

bt wat hav i done to u for u to treat mi tis way.

ans tis to yrself.hav i ever go against my promise i made to u?

even until d day tt we tok tinks out?

tink abt it.

i noe its yr mouth to say anytink tt u wan.

bt u shld noe wat can b said n wat can't.

wat if u were d one being here ?

do u lyk d same treatment frm mi ?

if dere's anytink tt u r unhapi abt,u can tel mi infront of my face,mayb i can change.

bt instead of u spreadin tinks bhind my back.i hate it.especially tinks tt r untrue.

lastly,i tink i shld thx u.

thx u for teachin mi life isn't fair.thx u for telin mi nt all frens r trust worthy.thx u for letin mi c the true colours of u.oso here to tell u im so angry bcos d wrds tt u said reali hurt mi deep inside.

2008-07-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

Be grateful to those hu hav hurt u,for dey hav reinforce yr determination.
Be grateful to those hu hav decieved u,for dey deepen yr sight.
Be grateful to those hu hav hit u,for dey hav reduced yr karmic obstacles.
Be grateful to those hu hav abandoned u,for dey hav taught u to b independent.
Be grateful to those hu hav made u stumble,for dey hav strengthened yr ability.
Be grateful to those hu hav denounced u,for dey increased yr wisdom n concentration.

2008-06-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

1.What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
ying mei.gal fren.

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes.while im sleepin.

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
in sch.having poa.

4. When did you last cry?
d dae b4 ytd.

5. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
toasted bread.

6. What do you want in your life right now?
gt all A in my studies,last long wif my dear =)

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
sumtyms.

8. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
my bei bei XD

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
a blue short.

10.What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
honey.good luck for your paper later.i am here to support you.jiayou!

11. Do you tends to make a relationships complicated?
ofcos not la -.-"

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
no.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Nania 2

14. What are you proud of?
Havin justine lam as my beloved bf !

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
jus finish swimming.now going to eat. -.-"

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
love song by sara bareilles.

17. Do you have any nicknames?
yes.

18. What does your last received text message say?
k me too.lol.that's why i am asking.yea.k ty.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
11pm.

20. Are you currently happy?
okok.normal.

21. Who gives you best advice?
phong june n ms koh ying mei !

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
erm no ? i hardly eat cream.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
nobody ?

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
yes.my coming chi oral.

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
my dar >.<

26. Do you wear toe socks?
hahas no .

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
justine lam .

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
lies.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
nope.in a relationship now.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
O.o ofcos dun hav la.i dun wish to b hang.

32. What is the colour of your room?
baby pink.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
i wil hate tt ppl bt i wun kill him or her.

34. Do you believed in the saying "talk in cheap"?
no.

35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
Myself

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
my mum.

37. What do you want to say to the person you have a crush on?c wats d situation.

38. Do you have a life?yes.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?maybe.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?i hav no profile song.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?june.lao gong n his family.

42. Last time you smiled?jus now.

43. Have you changed this year?yup mor mature tinkin.

44. What are you listening to right now?nth.

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?yes.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?open.

47. Is there a quote you live by?"nv regret d tinks tt u hav done.bcos its done."

48.Do you want someone you can't have?yes.my grandma.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?suo na.pipa.yang qin

50. What was the worst idea you've had in week?to giv up in my studies.

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?sleepin.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?yes.

53. What song describe your love life?wo you chu lian le.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?yes.

55. Who always make you laughs?la bi xiao xing.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?yes.chi n hokkien.

57. Are you blond?No.

58. What your middle name?pei.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?gg to sch.

60. What do you think you are like?human.

61. Who will you choose to die with?justine lam.

62.Where have you been today?school.

63. What game do you play often?i hardly play on9 games.

64. Who are you missing right now?my dear.

65. If you've to choose between friend & love, who will you choose?duno? hahas.

66. What are you doing right now?toking on fone.

67. Which primary school are you from?Yuhua Primary School.

68. Name 3 colours that you like.Black,white,red.

69. What emotion you like to show?happy ? if i can.

70. What is life to you?a place whr i can find hope.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do??seek avise frm frens.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today? ying mei.

73. Who do you admire the most?my dad =)

74. Which month are you born in?Janurary

75. How are you feeling right now?bored~

76. What is the time now?2.45pm

77. Where are you now?mybedroom

78. What colour did you used to dye hair?Copper Brown

79. Why are you doing this test?my lao gong(june)asked mi to.

80. What do you do when you're moody?eat ? hahas n mayb singing out loud.

81. Are you stupid?sumtyms.

82. Who is more important to you?my family,dar n my frens.

83. Do you think you have enough confident?yeah!

84. Who is the person you trust the most?my lao gong n ms koh ym.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?yup ^^

86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?i wana b happy .

87. What is your goal for this year?to b d best gf,pass all my subj wif flyin colours.

88. Do you believe in eternity love?yes.

89. what do you love?i luv my dar,my family,my frens,n shoppin XD

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?yes.

91. What feeling you hate the most?jealousy.

92. you cherish every single friendship of yours?Yes.

93. Do you believe in God?if dere's ghost,dere'll b god.

94. Who cares for you the most?my parents.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?to b able to luv n b luved.

96. What'll you bring when you fight?myself.

97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?nt realising hw much my parents luv mi n nt wkin hard in d past yrs.

98. What i expect in myself?to b d best i can.

99. What if your stead two-timed you?a slap n his face,walk off.

100. Why are you living on this world?cos im stil young ? hahas

Instructions:Remove 1 question from the above add in your own personal question, and bold it.Next, list 10 people whom you would you want them to do this, at the end of the post.Notify them in their tag box that he/she has been tagged.

Being strong is nt easy.

2008-05-29T17:35:00.000+08:00

Sry guys com was under repair for d past few daes thus unable to blog... n jus gt back my com ytd.

Back to post.jus found out tt im running a fever =.= an hour ago.went to sch for history lesson in d mornin which im nearly late. den to bai bai my ah ma hu is currently in d heaven nw.followin whn to lot1 to do sum shopin n went lunch wif mama at wan chai hong kong tea hse.reach hm in d aftrnn wifout gg further shopin as in between kp running to d toilet,felt lyk vomitin n headache.on my way home while takin 188 bus,saw yan qi,waved n said hi.aftr reachin hm,gt to noe frm my dad tt if i wana go on star cruise nw it is stil possible as my bro is gg tdy n i wanted to join bt bcos of tis fever,it spoiled everytink.

Subsequently,my dad even"cheated"mi into drinkin tt bitter chi medi.1stly,he told mi tt tis medi is nt bitter bt gav mi a sweet b4 i started drinkin =.=.2ndly,told mi tt drinkin tis wil smoothen my throat.bt whn i drank i feel tt my throat was burning instead.N i can tell u if dere was no sweet provided i can guarantee i comfirm vomit d chi medi out sumor d chi medi is black in colour!!yucks!

"Admit your mistake,do not push to blame,accept it.Learn from your mistake,reflect all you can,what have you done wrong,what can you do to make it better.Last of all,do not repeat the mistakes you've done."taken frm my kor gabriel's blog.i hav learnt alot of tinks frm him.N ofcos oso grateful of him n my best fren miss KOH YING MEI !! dey gav their hands to mi went i nd help most.lend mi a shoulder for mi to cry on whn i nd a support.walked d thoughest road of my life wif mi.jus wanted to say thx! =) n if dere is 1 dae u nd mi,i promise i wil b by yr side lyk wat u hav done for mi too.dun ask mi y i suddenly wrote tis,can i said jus came to it n felt touched? hahas n nt tt im nt touched in d past,jus tt i couldn't find a chance to tell u so.. yup.

Lastly,tis is for my dear.
mr black,i noe tt u r gg through alot of pain n misery nw.so im here to assure u tt no matter wat i wil stil luv u even if u dunid it anymor.i noe i may sound childish bt i jus wana say i wana b wif u forever.In a relationship dere is always ups n dwn.i hav faith in our relationship n blive tt it is strong enuff to withstand any obstacle tt's ahead of us.bt on top of all,jus lyk u nd 2 hands to clap,a relationship consist of 2 ppl.dun b afraid of d future bcos future is in our own hands.trust mi jus go along as per normal n everytink wil b fine.

guess tt's d end of my post,all d best to those hu r takin their O lvls.Work hard n play hard !

daddy's bdae !

2008-05-13T12:00:00.000+08:00

well as u can see tdy is my dad bdae... well im stil tinkin wat to giv my dad bt whnever i asks him he wld rpy" i dun nid anytink u jus concentrate on yr studies tt's gd enuff for mi " bt as u noe everybody wish to recieve a present frm their beloved ones. or even dey r xpectin one however i did dissapoint him whn he asked mi if we shld go out n eat tonite. n u can say i was foolish enuff to say " tot we jus went to crystal jade ytd to celebrate mother's dae? " n forgotten tdy was his bdae until i asked for his ic to double check. at that point in time i can see d Dissapointment wearin on his face. i mus hav hurt him. bt anyway its nt past 12 yet , meanin dere's stil ways tt i can tink of to celebrate his bade.

Message to Dad,
if you are reading this, I would want to take this oppunity to thank you for everythink that u have done for this family.We really appreciate it and hope u know it too.I know that you have done your best and how much efforts u have put in. u always gave the best to us and selfless towards yourself. however there are times that we disaggree but no matter what happens we will always be on your side supporting u . Happy Birthday to my best daddy i ever had =)
from: mama, peiling, lin wei ( we loves u )

9/5/08 (friday)
Went to dar dar hse aftr sch ...intented to study and do my hm wk bt ended up playin hahas,oso brought jj (his dog) dwn for a walk.lata eugene,chong han and eric came too.and once agn chong han played play station n eric computer games(duno wat game) and dere my fav dear playin boxing =.=. following ard 5.30pm as his mama was comin home and i was embarrassed tt i always go to his hse so left earli and he sent mi home.on bus it was suppose to b a long trip bt whnever im wif him d tym seems to pass faster den ususal.and he acc mi until d door step of my hse..n guess wat hapns ? my papa n bro was on my way to pasar malam so i joined dem too.in d life we spoke nth xcept tt my bro kp calin mi stupid... irritating him. den whn on seperate ways as dar nd to go home to buy dinner for his mum.

10/5/08
Went to bugis street wif my dearest chiao zhen, hui li and his fren enzo.as i had been yearning to go to town as it has been sum tym since i last visited dere. well... everytink stays d same dere .. brought a dress and went to took sum pic ^^ bt unfortunately my com had sum probs n was unable to show it to u guys here .. bt i wil upload dem to friendster asap =) aftr which i went to mit dar dar agn .. as im missing him and took jj for a walk agn.didnt hav much tym bt as long as im able to c him tt's enuff for mi .

11/5/08
And finally the day has come ...tis is our 1 month anniversary!!! hahas has been longing for tis da to come bt unfortunately it crashes wif Mother's day ...Zzz brought my mum to crystal jade for dinner and guess hw much it cost for a 6 dish meal ? $122.90 !! can say tis reali caused a hole in my pocket.. n to my surpise dar dar say he will b mitin mi aftr dinner!! well actuali im touched tt he make d effort to mit mi up b4 tis dae was over. went to jp to brought our mama presents!! hahas n we brought d same presents too! even flowers XD hahas den went to his hse to gav d present n aftrward sent mi home... can say im trembling whn i saw his mama n was at a lost for wrds.. and bcos of tis wanted to say hapi mother's day bt instead i said hapi mama's day ... totally ashamed -.-" in bus we had our kiss gd bye hahas actuali i oso duno wat im doin at tt tym bt ... well it jus hapn. reached home n tis is d 1st tym my dad invites a guy to my hse !! im proud of u dar dar ^^ and d dae ended wif d wrd i luv u .

On pins n needles...

2008-05-06T09:50:00.000+08:00

im reali agitated by d coming O lvls.,n nt getin a move on at the same tym.werid i noe. the feeling has came back,mind filled wif him all day long.and he himself felt d same too.had been gg out recently n consistently,funny tink is a dae too us felt lyk a yr long. and ytd we were chattin on fone den i realise tt tym is gg fast yet slow...fast in d way tt 5 months had alrdy past n in a blink of eye we will b sitin for our O and N lvls... slow in d sense tt we jus gone out tgt ytd bt it seems lyk we had nt met each other for a long tym while we r home.hahas in terms of shoppin ...i hav to say sry to chiao zhen n xin hui,as i always agrees to go out bt last min cancelled as i forgot i gt tinks on..dui bu qi..bt i reali missed bugis street!!!oh ya!n on top of all hav to say bon voyage to my mum hu is in hong kong nw bt comin back tdy hahas.hrm.. wonder wat hav she gt for mi >.< for studies i can only say 一落千丈.tt's all for tdy , wait for my nxt post ! bbye!

speechless.

2008-04-28T03:32:00.000+08:00

ytd was a v fun,angry,frightenful,sad dae for mi.went to lot1 in d aftrnn wif mama to get sum shoppin den went to mit dar at ard 6.everytink turned out fine whn we mit at d lib. i saw erni..i can only say she's a nice gal as i see.and my dar could hav chosen her instead of mi ... i duno.bt wat gone bad was d senting mi home part.as usual,he sent mi home n we went to d playground for sum fun aftr which ard 10+ i sent him back to d toh guan park.i didn't wan to sent him to d bus stop nt bcos im afraid of walkin home alone bt im scared tt i wldn't bare to see him go whn d bus come. so i rather we go on seperate ways dere at least im nt delayin his tym any further.

while wakin home,i kept turnin back to steal a galnce to check if dere's any sign of him.. bt to no avail.i can only say tt dere's 2 person in my body at tt moment.1 tellin mi to go back n find him n send him to d bus stop. 2nd telin mi to go home n call him to make sure he's safe. i might hav choose d 1st one bt if i did im being too selfish,tinkin only for myself n lettin him gg home late.so i went home n called him,for 1 hr,30 calls. bt he didnt picked up...my mind went wild,thoughts flowed through my mind.a car might hav knock him dwn or blah blah blah... im afraid so i called chong han to contact him bt stil he nv pick up...so hopin against hope i told my dad tt im hungry in order to go dwn n check whether he's dere,bt my dad dun agree on tt by sayin its late at nite its nt safe for a gal to walk alone so he called out to my mum n asked her to join mi.

on d way,as my mum was naggin d only voice i can hear is fear,nt hers.finally he msg mi sayin tt he's safe at home alrdy.at tt juncture i felt relieved n angry at d same tym. so i didnt rpy his msg nor picked up his calls. as i didnt noe wat to say or .... in d mean tym whn i reach hm wif my fish fillet i threw half of it to d bin as im nt reali hungry bt worried. den whn on9 to see if he's dere mayb chattin dere may b a bttr chioce.bt to my dissapointment no...so went to view blogs.at one which i hardly went. i read everytink dere n once agn my mind went blank.i didnt wan to say whose blog was tt.bt im only scared if one dae im gg to lose my dar,feelin rather helpless i chated wif my lao gong, june.im v grateful tt i hav her as my listening ear,givin my advise n all sorts.n whn all tt was done,i prepared myself n called him.we chated only a few wrds bt most was silence tt kept d cal ocuppied.at last,i ended d silence bt callin him to slp 1st as its late at nite although i knew tt both of us wun b slpin earli bt i jus hope tt he can gt enuff rest as his exams r comin.

dear,i jus wana say sry if i did put all d blame on u for nt pickin up my calls, i didnt mean to.dui bu qi.

sat morning

2008-04-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

yeap its a sat mornin, jus finish my breakfast,currently rotting agn ... Zzz im jus bored.

fights fights fights =.=

2008-04-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

i started off my dae as usual,wif my mama's hands on mi calin mi to wake up .tried n boring dae . ytd went to pasar malam wif dar aftr which we den went to eugene hse.... mahjong! hahas! xpected. followin dar was unable to send mi home as its v tym consuming n its alrdy 7 + by then. stress stress stress.... exams are coming day by day ! n im stil on my toes ! omg ! guess i hav to wake myself up to study ! Zzz bt i hate studyin ... every nw n den d only tink i can tink of is justine here justine dere(flyin black pig here n dere) hahas =x sianz ... i hate sch days. currently pending to june's bbq ... bt b4 tt im gg to sit for my mt o lvl ppr -.-" u see hw d pprs spoils yr mood ? oh ya ! nearly forgot ... tdy dere's a fight in my class too. its seems more lyk a riot to mi .erm ppl frm d lower sec oso came =.= can say im jus watchin show dere ... well nth much to say.oh n went to d 100 yr old fire station for visit hahas... had fun dere. chated wif my lao gong june on bus while ken stepped on a baby cockroach ... XD tink tt's all for tdy .. bbye !

muscle cramps...

2008-04-20T05:15:00.000+08:00

hahas reali had fun ytd ... can say yi shen nan wang de yi tian.
in d aftrnn dar dar come to my hse n find mi which shocked my half dead as my whole family is home .den went to je the popular to spend my $10 voucher given by d sch for achievin 2nd in d level last yr XD originally i was tinkin wat can i change for den sumtink caught my eye ... hahas d chi compo book .n d other hand dear chi wasn't so gd so it wil b gd if i had tt for him.subsequently i went on to search for d other stuff tt can mount up to $10.n d next tink tt went into my mind was correction tape hahas as i tink he dun hav 1 . following we went to d counter to pay up n stil we were left wif 55cents hahas so we took a candy which made it up to $9.95 clever ? hehez ..

aftr tt ym msg us tt d tym for us to go to her hse has changed to 4-5 pm ...in tt case bo bian we went to je to gai gai .den watch the forbidden kingdom .hahas its funny,n quite nice la bt sumtink weird is tt since whn d all d su mo kong n d chi monk speak eng -.-" we finish d show ard 4+ den we went straight to ym hse le.played wii at her hse .hahas can say im reali bad at tt .. bt had fun..abt 8 + we left her hse for dinner wif gabe ...den went to pasar malam. abt 10+ we waited for bus which dar insist in sendin mi home ...

in d bus we didnt chat much bt im alrdy content wif wat i hav nw. whr we go doesn't matter... as long as he's bside mi =) tt wil do. aftr alightin d bus we played piggy back as he promised mi to do so XD haha bt i abmit im reali of weight to him ... cos aftr tt he had muscle cramps =.= n mi too ... leg cramps. haha! n finally we reached my hse which means its tym for us to say gd bye which neither of us wanted. whn i reached home d 1st tink i do was to cal him.. n he said he had lost his way to d bus stop... so i whn runnin dwn for him to make sure he's fine as its late at nite ... alot of bangalas nt safe =x n dere we mit agn haha fast ? yeah...erm walked him to d busstop n he kip wantin mi to take a taxi home whr by my hse is jus a stone throw away... at d same tym he oso pushed mi $10 to make sure i had d $$ to go home by taxi =.= .... speechless stubborn rite ? bt jus to b frank im oso touched to noe tt he cared alot for mi.

dere's a common tink in us tt is we r nt clever n nt stupid . haha! nt clever in d sense tt we pushed $$ to each other jus to make sure d other ppl gt safe. n nt stupid in d sense tt we do noe hw to tink.once agn at d same busstop which we visited 3 tyms a day.we didnt speak much...n i can see tt dere is a sign of reluctantcy.n sumtyms slience is d best ans to all Q as we all noe d ans bt jus afraid to face it by ourself.n two 99 bus went off as he refused to take d bus.it was 12+ at tt tym.. n no bus le so d only way home wil b taxi .. =,= n its double charged . silly him chose to take a double charged taxi instead of a 45cents bus. n d reason for tt is bcos he wanted stay a lil longer.. bt sha de ke ai la .

on my side...dar if u r readin tis pls forgive mi.... i walked home instead of takin d taxi ... d $10 u found in yr bag is actuali d $10 u gave mi,i may seem selfish bt forgive mi i jus wan u to b back home safely. in d mean tym my dad was hurryin mi home.so i went runnin home frm je to toh guan ...which nearly took half of my life away jus hopin my dad wun gt worried for mi ...as usually he wil jus stop mi frm gg out tt late ... even if it is only 7pm. n successfully i reached home in 15 mins ... li hai ma ?bt i can tell u 12 mid nit in toh guan park was reali scary... nt a single ppl u can found n below my blk was a bangala wonderin ard ... damn scary ok? bt nvm its all over n im hapi tt i made it over ^^ only through tis i understand hw much i had alrdy fallen in justine lam de ai >.<

男人女人

2008-04-18T12:45:00.000+08:00

sry guys...had been bz tis daes so didn't manage to blog anw im back !
1stly ... dere's quite a couple of tinks tt hapn recently .. n d gd news is ... im finally tgt wif ******* XD meanin its tym to let u all noe hu tis is ... or mayb alot of ppl might hav guessed earlier .. ya its JUSTINE ! hahas shocked ? ok la ... jus hoped tt we can last long n im sure we will =) tdy went to jp aftr sch to mit him ... hahas wearin sch uni is kinda odd bt ... hahas nvm as long as im wif him ... den saw alot of jvs ppl pop up =.= ususally dere's nt much bt duno y ... aftr which we went to mit eugene,andy,rui lian n eric at jurong stadium for dinner at ri ben chun. n as per normal ym is bz wif her crp so didnt call her ... den aftr tt went to eugene hse a jiffy for sum true n dare game haha ! guess wat ? dear kissed d cardboard,door,wall, eric's back -.-" i shld say he mus hav been sway ... in conclusion its stil a enjoyable day ^^ laughed,joked,smiled .

tired of studyin ?

2008-04-08T16:31:00.000+08:00

ya im seriously fallin asleep in lessons,probably bcos im lack of slp ? tdy gt back my poa ppr ... gt 19.5/20 haha ! its seems to mi tt bloggin hav been my daily routiine instead of mi doin my sch wk. sianz ... thurs im havin my chi test,den tmr chem. bt its okay i noe all tis will come to an end =) b optimistic ! as the daes goes by ... it only mean 1 tink . my test is comin soon . dere's too much tink for mi to hope for bt i blive in putin my wrds into actions . and im gona strive till d end !! yey ! -.-" on d other side ... i felt tt mi n him had been closer tis days ... heez *claps pls.... however tis oso explained tt im relyin alot on him on tinks lyk msgin,fone calls.and im afraid tt 1dae i might nt b able to control myself frm missing him...guess im being too self-centered ...

hart skipped.

2008-04-07T02:06:00.002+08:00

i jus hope tt tym could stop at tt moment. i hope tt he could luv mi. i hope tt he could b wif mi whnever i nd him. i hope tt he's happy. i hope tt nth will pull mi away frm him. i hope tt i can seperate myself into 2 pieces so my mind wun went off wif him. i hope tt nobody wil object us. i hope tt i can b the 1st ppl to show him wats luv. i hope tt i can hav him everydae in my dream. i hope tt we can b happily ever aftr, i hope tt im his princess n he's my prince. i hope tt im his 1st n last gal. i hope to c him smile whn i feel dwn. i hope tt he wil b the one who save mi frm tis world to a fairytale once upon a tym. lastly.... if ******* is readin tis nw pls wait for mi at the heaven's cloud =)

mahjong !

2008-04-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

morning everybody! hahas ytd went to eugene hse for mah jong agn ^^ bt tis tym round dere is a new member wif us. her name is called shu hui frm ju yin sec... cute lil gal i can say ... erm long hair,wif spects,abt my height XD bt unfortuantly ym didnt turn up ytd as she was havin her chi CRP.i reached dere earli. so waited at d voitdeck wif ******* hahas duno y bt i kept laughin whn ever i saw him .back to eugene hse... we played mahjong nt for long den went to da bao our lunch le.he treated mi alot bt dun wan mi to pay =.= u see weird ppl rite?gt $ dun wan.back to eugene hse i closed d door tried to stuff sum $ into his bag bt my plan has been spoiled due to those 2 ' GD FRENS' of *******. so he went to d room n puted d $$ back to my wallet. so i pass d $$ to shu hui n ordered her to pass dem to *******. a moment ago i saw it in shu hui's hand bt lata -.-" aftr i went home i found d $$ went back to my wallet agn .aftr which i send shu hui to pay up her tution fee we chatted quite alot n only by den i understood she luved him far more den i did.well mayb i shld jus consecrate dem hapily forever aftr. bt by now i hav discovered tt my feeling towards him has been built much bolder den b4,meanin its harder for mi to let go or shld i say i dun wish to? overall .. its a tremendous day .. had alot fun =)

everybody's gona say gd bye

2008-04-04T07:10:00.000+08:00

Had been stayin at home since last wk.simply bcos nth interest mi.duno wats gg on bt feelin tt im losing myself.whn ever i feel lyk studyin i can't.my mind jus dun belong to mi any longer.well,bt to *******.im stil waitin for the tym to come whn i can pluck up my courage to tell him the feelings i had for him.however it seems to take mi forever =.= i admit tt im scared of him rejectin mi.through all d relationships i had,iunderstand wats d taste of a broken hart n surely dun wish to end up lidat agn.each tym i wanted to send a msg to him sumtink seems to b pullin mi back,tellin mi"hey u may disturb him in d middle of his wk,u irritates him!"is tis called '1 sided luv'? i suppose it mus be..or mayb i shld jus forget abt him n go on wif my life? dere's nv a rite tym to say gd bye perharps its tym for us to go on seperate ways.tis few days i had been staring at my fone jus to check if dere is a single msg frm ******* bt to my dissapointment no.is tis tellin mi to go? i noe i am nt being strong nor independent bt i jus can't help it,tt's y is called fallin in luv!

shop shop >.<

2008-03-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

bugis for tdy! hahas yup went to bugis wif ym .woke up at 8 jus to gt myself prepared as i nd to reach sembawang at 11.30 for my preorder dress...den mit ym at boon lay contral station at 12.30...went to bugis bt to our dissapointment no clue of any shuai ge bt mostly gals or couples =.= den went hm at 6+ ... aftr dinner at long john n sum shoppin..tink tt's all... cya n gd nite =)

down to d core !

2008-03-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

ytd had my 2.4km run.so tis proved tt my wishing upon d star for a rain didn't come true.instead d rain came at a wrong tymin =.= well back to d run,i didn't feel lyk runnin as i slept late d nite b4 to do my hm wk.thus didn't hav much energy for d run bt gainin darker circles ard my eyes.my record was 16.22mins,isn't tt gd actualli..bt d strange tink aftr d run was i felt dizzy n sweating alot under d sun.hence while we r on d way back to sch i fainted in d doorway of d general office,luckily wif my dear lao gong,june holding mi or else i tink im gonna hav a bump bhide my head.so being send back home aftr recess.

Today
sianz.

another boring dae ~

2008-03-27T02:41:00.000+08:00

Had my breakfast in d mornin den off to sch...n tdy is kar ling's bdae !! A grp of frens includin mi,rona,jia min,j-min,xin ying,ee ting n qi qi we brought her a dp which cost 254 bucks..which is nt a small sum of $$..well i can only say she nd to pay us back by giv present which cost mor den $50 each XD ... bt unfortuanatly my bdae is over...sobz bt if any1 wana giv mi belated present i dun mind la haha !tmr P.E agn .. sianz jus hope it wil rain tmr(provided in d rite tym)..bt oso apparently sumtink unpresent hapn tdy too..which im nt gg to say nor mention it..i jus feel lyk i hav trusted d wrong ppl..dissapointed..aftr reachin home i found a lizard in d toliet =.= at 1st i was shocked bt lata ..nahz nt a tink due to d sleepyness ...n d weird tink is tt i noe im feelin slpy bt i jus can't slp as im afraid of headache...so went lyin on bed instead ..-.-"

i hate sch days .

2008-03-26T07:04:00.000+08:00

22/3/08
today went out wif my cousin to jp ...boring day indeed.saw tao cheng n gang at zone X...nt long later lester called n we chated a while askin hu is dere as i didnt take much notice ...oh! n brought memoirs of a geisha too!nice book =)followed next i went to my cousin hse for dinner. soon the nite comes n home sweet home to bed.

23/3/08
woke up at 12 tis morning ... had my breakfast/lunch watever u wana cal cos im havin it at 12 =.= aftr tt went to greaT world city to collect my bro's psp... XD walked pass a pet shop ... intent to buy a hamster bt papa refused ...den went for lunch at ichiban for sushi! ha ha ...

24/3/08
which is ytd .. went mac b4 gg to sch wif ty,jeffrey,sandeep n yong xian to hav our breakfast.aftr tt went to sch n had our lessons.went home aftr sch ... as u can c my life is filled wif black n white .. well i suppose sumday ,sum1 will come into my life to put the colours on for mi =)

25/3/08
n finally here comes tdy ..went to sch as ususal... n if u noe tdy is d dae whn i broke up wif my ex-eric ...which is d guy whom i used to luv v much ...we went through all d tough tym we went through i did wanted to thx him for teachin mi so much tink tt i couldn't hav learnt wifout him... went back home agn .. slacking XD

good fri !!

2008-03-22T13:40:00.000+08:00

Despite its a good fri tdy nt havin sch..i stil felt bored lyk ususal.tdy went to taka to get myself a book named 'Atonement' which is a movie sumtyms back...bt to mi d did cost mi alot ..$17.12 for jus 480 pages of ppr filled wif wrds...also i mus admit tt my poor leg suffered alot bcos of my high heel shoe which only cost 10 bucks..mayb its true whn dey say cheap tinks can't b trusted...den saw my cousin at je qhr mi n ym planned to hav our lunch at kobayashi b4 gg to taka to taka...hrm nth special hapn tdy xcept tt i received a real sunflower todae XD

其实还爱你

2008-03-20T17:16:00.001+08:00

词曲: 阿沁

我讨厌冬天的风

冷的那么刺痛

只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞

昨天的风筝在角落

被谁丢到了路口

我很不想让你找到离开的理由

每一夜闭上眼睛

我看到了噩梦

你微笑但是旁边的人不是我

天空切开一道裂缝

直接割到我心中

不想装做脆弱

也不想爱的懦弱

其实我非常爱你

不想失去你

难道我没有权利

说我不愿意

我知道他很爱你

你怕他伤心

我每天假装开心害怕你离去

可不可以任性求求你不要去

藏在我心里最后一句

其实还爱你

rain rain go away

2008-03-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

Went to eugene hse ytd.hahas did our mahjong session ,chattin n slackin .. tot ym was comin but unfortunatlly she was caught up by her tution n all sorts of tinks tt make her unavaildable for us la...and as u xpected ytd was a rainin dae too =.= providentially my dad drove mi dere or else i tink i wil b csught in d rain agn.aftr i reach hm by 99bus,Went to Mac nbrought myself an apple pie XD as i was reali hungry n didnt hav my lunch.reachin hm was nt a v pleasent tink for mi as it means tt its d tym for mi to start my hm wk.so ytd i burned my mid-nite oil in return to gt my chi compo done.

todae i was late to sch n being send to d office =.= bt its reasonable la as im lata for 1 whole hr n missed my PE.den off to my MT lesson..followed by math n finally recess!! hahas as u can see tt's my fav tym in sch.aftr recess was assmbly .. n dere stood our vp mr thomas ..can say tt im dozing off to my lala land while he's givin his speech bcos of d coolin weather.for a long while i waited for the bell to go n well to d lib to return my fren's book...n so drenched by d rain agn.

FEELINGS
abt tis topic ... well duno wat to say bt i blive sumdae,sumtym,sumhow in my life my prince charming will save mi,take mi away n happily ever after...

10 more wks to exams....

2008-03-17T16:04:00.000+08:00

14/03/08
On fri went out wif xin hui n teng yin.Initially we are suppose to go out wif jeffrey,yong xian,ken n blah blah blah.bt ended up all dun wana go as jeffrey is d only guy if he go.so we 3 gals decided to go on ourself instead of rottin at home.went to bugis and brought a pair of shoes for myself and went for dinner at long john.aftr which we went home by bus 197... hahas had fun in d bus chattin n takin sum photos... ended d day wif a smile =)

15/03/08
slacked at home to finish homework bt half way through went to bed to hav a short nap...n woke up wif a headache =.= den went for a shower and off to boon lay lib to finish the rest of dem.in the lib while i am doin my math i met ******* hu is unexpected to turn up hahas xD so chatted n do our hm wk tgt.aftr tt we went to d prata shop for a break n hav sum pratas.and bcos i didnt brought my $$ along,so i folded a straw hart while waitin for dem to get their food ordered as originally i didnt noe tt ******* brought mi d prata too,until i was shocked bt an extra plate of prata infront of mi...bt unfortunately didnt manage to finish all of dem bt sum...whn its ard tym to go home tt ******* hereby sent my to jp interchange agn..well i can say i felt so fortunate to c *******.on d way dere i was wondering whether or not to giv ******* d hart,while i was struggling within myself its finally came to a stop as we hav reach d 187 bus stand...so we waved each other bb n off to bus wif d hart stil on my hand.

17/03/08
todae went back to sch frm our 1 wk holi.. i can say tt being a student is nt as easy as adults hav always tot.for instant getin myself into my social studies lessons hav always been trough for mi.why ??? its simply bcos i hate tt subj...n d tcher always scolds us while we ask her Q tt we dun understand bt she tot we shld noe it.such an unreasonable tcher.aftr all tis is only my opinion.another prob is my math... i dislike math frm young as i always tot tt math is a v troublesum subj... den off to my poa.. my poa tcher has v high expectations on mi as i nv let her dwn b4 ... so currently hopin tt everytink went smoothly until end of my sec sch life...n here come chi.. gt back my mock ppr 1. althought i did manage to pass bt stil feelin dissapointed wif d marks i gt.. even my chi tcher feels tt too.

blog is back to life !

2008-03-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

To all my readers (if any) hahas blog is back to life !! it has been a veri veri veri long tym since my last post,well dere's only 1 word to say 'busy' basically i do blive tt tym cures a broken harts as u can take mi as an exp.bt ofcos to recover frm a broken relationship is nv easy as u can see frm my previous post..and it has been hard on mi too.okay so by gone is by gone..we can't change the past.

Erm..lets start wif tdy den ..
its a hot n sunny morning,wif the sun shining on my butt.i started off my day wif a bee hoon which my daddy had brought for mi n went to check for any forgotten items which i needed to bring for d bbq.on d other hand my daddy was oso bz preparing my satay source which is needed for d bbq(hehez wat a caring papa i hav rite?)den off to papa car to pick my dearest ying mei.on d way, raindrops started to fall=.=damn unlucky rite?and aftr we reach dere becomes bigger n bigger whr by we nid to stay at d mac so at the same tym we had our lunch dere too.

Once we r done wif our eatin ...off to rent bicycle as it is stil a long way frm our bbq pit...bt mi n ym(ying mei) decide nt to rent as she is scared n im broke.so we walked in d rain singin wif songs which comes in our mind.aftrreachin dere went to d sea for a swim XD hahas bt ended up wif games n stuff la.aftr our 'swim' whn for a bath.n even til 6 the rain has nt stopped so we decided to hav our bbq instead d shelter instead hahas sounds fun? ya!

as the nite grew darker,it nt only symbolise the start of the excitement bt oso the tym we had wil b shorter bcos my parents nv allowed mi to stay overnite(ton).At last my daddy called n i noe its d tym to go home den.im felt so reluctant to go home bcos dere's so much fun left.bt sadly dere's always two sides,for every choices u made dere wil always b a gd point n a bad wan.so i went off tinkin tt i wil b the only 1 gg home as ym is stayin.im felt scared n ofcos sad as its stil a long way to my hse.until sum1 *******grabbed my bag n ran away -.-"

so i went on chasin him for my bag ..until it bcomes ******* sent mi off.as we were walkin n the others were bhide im tinkin of Q askin him or topic to start wif.suddenly obs comes to my mind as we both went through it.althought i didnt noe him long until 02/2/2008 we 1st met in frenster.den we met at bugis whn i was nt told *******was comin too.and soon we became frenz.tym files... n soon my dad cals agn n said he reach le.so out of choices i ran wif hui li a new fren which i noe throught d bbq as i tot it might b a gd idea to sent her home too.in my daddy's car i was tinkin whn wil we b havin such bbq agn whr by the same ppl wil b dere agn. i guess we can hardly had one.. so i did treasure my tym dere.and in my hart dere's sum wrds i wanted to say to ******* bt afraid tt it might jus hapn as a crush.i guess sum wrds r bttr left to b unsaid.wondering wat r dey doin dere,jus hope tt dey r havin fun n im dere too..it's nw 2.30am tink i wil stop here n go for my beauty slp wahahaha nite!

im back !

2007-11-18T07:00:00.000+08:00

hahas hihi aftr a few months of break decided to come back to blogging le !
Between dis period of tym .. alot of tinks hapn ... sum r gd n others r bad ...
A few days ago i went to east coast wif my laogong(june)as my cousin was openin a chalet dere ... quite a fun trip .. we rent bicycle .. play wif da sand .. n lots of stuffs .. oso costed us alot ($$$).. sobz .. den jus ytd ... was the unluckiest dae of tis month .. i can say .. ytd i went salon,cos my mum gt free treatment voucher so she giv mi.den go thr dey say nd to top up $$$.Den ask mi wan to cut a nt, i say anytink..aftr tt whn its tym to pay up ... guess wats d price?? $48 !! hahas i was lyk shock ... tt much ? luckly my mum was bside mi ,otherwise i tink im broke le ... den nvm ... ard 7pm... i went to my fren hse,ying mei,once i step out of my hse ... it started to rain =.= aftr 1 hr of bus trip , i finally reach her hse ...den another fren of mine say he is nt comin due to a big accient tt block d traffic .. no bus is comin thr ...so ard 9pm i left her hse to go to jp interchange for gg home.. n guess wat agn?... no bus is gg to jurong west =.=" ... whr by i nd to go pass jurong west to reach home ..due to tt accient...bt at d same tym .. im hungry too.. so i brought a donut n im left wif 40 cents nw ..IM BROKE!!so i cal my papa to fetch mi home bt he refused instead of tt he went to watch his news ...so end up i took d mrt... hahas the end.

china

2007-06-01T02:35:00.000+08:00

hahs feelin surprised ? erm i nw at china de haihe high sch ... com lab lesson . hrm gt alot of tinks to shared wif u bt nw cos thr's tym limit so i can onli share a few tinks tat i tink is special here... do u ever noe whn u r in a china sch , u nd 2 wear sheo bags whn goin in 2 their com lab ?? ahahs yes ! u nd ... so u can see frm here tat dey r v particular abt it n can cherish their tinks v well. haiz regretted tat i nv bring my hp nor camera here . so no photos for u all le . sry ... bt hahas story tellin wil start once i reach s'pore so dun wori :} oh ! n hahas oso made frens here . dey so nice n friendly !! hahas is lyk whn we go into their class . dey all takin photos of u , askin wats yr name n blar blar blar hahas . n sry i stil cant gt any presents yet too. as all tis days we r in sch . pai seh . bt no wories presents wil b bought. n miss my lucky too.

the days we shared tgt wil nv b back.

2007-05-27T04:05:00.000+08:00

ytd,went to sch. aftr sch go je watch movie{pirates of the caribbean}. hahas quite a nice show bt i dun understand a tink as i nv watch 1. thn ate popcorn.go to take bus, on d way saw ee ting n kar ling. a few mins ltr saw j-min n her fren. so invited thm to my hse to pei mi {feelin lonely each day} ard 6pm+ my pa brought back A DOG !! hahas its a jack russel actuali, which shock mi. ard 6.30 pm joleen cal mi to acc her 2 a public dance show. which costed $10 , in d end i onli paid $5 as hahas im broke n joleen treated mi $5. heez thx joleen !! at 7,we met n take mrt 2 kallang. 9pm+ d show ended hahas bt we r alreadi half dead bcos of hunger. we searched high n low for food bt none was found-.- so hahs we go je eat KFC. thn we walk home.todae parents meetin dae, gt back report bk. eng c5. chinese U. e math A1. combined sci A1. (phy n chem) combined humanities U.(ss n hist)poa A1. comments : peiling is a quiet n polite pupil,she always does her best.she shows self-discipline whr wk is concerned n has shown interest in her wk.

failing to pass

2007-05-24T02:12:00.000+08:00

todae i gt back my chinese paper ... i failed... hahas vv badly. hrm mayb im jus nt the 1 for takin o level chinese ? hahas i wil wk hard tis yr n see ... if i failed agn ... mayb i wil ask for droppin back 2 NA paper bahz ... in tat way at least i can pass. i was cryin n laughin at d same tym in d class. tinkin tat laugher wil stop tears frm fallin ? its nt true !! feelin reali bad tis few dae as... i tink tat im spendin alot of my pa $$ which i dun wish 2 ... my pa always put family b4 himself. he wld rather nt eat n tell us he's on a diet to buy us tinks .even tot he didnt say, bt i understand so i begin wkin hard for my studies as to make him hapi bt ... wat other ppl tink is tat im jus showin off.oso relationship prob has been pullin dwn my grades too... in co ... hahs even worst ... stress!! bt a gd piece of gd news.. hahs im tthe SL(sectional leader) for woodwind section hezz .. al tot i noe it wun last long bt hapi 2b 1 . studies... hahas lots of project wk comin to mi ... argh!!! n plus im d leader... den todae giv my members wk to do den dey start giv mi faces... dun dey noe tat im doin even mor thn thm ?? bside tis project i stil nd 2 do another for my china trip for presentation. feelin tat ... if dey dun lyk mi thn jus tel mi i wil let go of my positon. 7 mor daes to china...

slpy..

2007-05-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

todae gt back my chem paper le :]] heez i gt sec in class ... 41/50... haiz jus 1mark difff n i can gt top le bt nvm overall im stil top hahaas.... gd gd [glads] hrm aftr sch went for oversea briefin thn went home wif felicia ... feel vv ps 2 let her wait for mi jus 2 acc mi go home ...reached home ... 1st tink eat 2nd slp thn bathe nxt on9 hahas. the day ended lyk tis ^^

last wk of sch.

2007-05-22T09:20:00.000+08:00

hahas d dae tat im leavin s'pore wil b comin in 9 daes tym !! hrm i wil b missin each n every of my frens, family, cousins badly. oso i wil b briingin my diary along too. hahas tinks wil b recorded each dae. tink by the tym i come back ,thr wil b lots of story for u all le xD for my suo na ... erm abit woriin. bt nvm i wil try my best.sch was as per normal... slackin in class... playin tic-tac toe ,gt bacck my english paper 2 ( 47/80) which is nt v well done n math paper 2 (37/40) hahas top !! yey !! n poa (43/50) hahas top too!! so in total nw i hav my phy top , math top, poa top bt ss n history(13/30) failed... haiz diff of 2 marks. so nw im stil left wif chem , mt and english paper 1. aftr sch ... went je n jp wif felicia hahas brought a necklace. den on d way home saw cheong mum ... so mi, felicia n cheong mum compared our results hahas. for 'him' hahas i hav tried my best to let go.hopin 2 see him in d airport,althought i noe its impossible bt i blive in miracles.just wana say it out b4 i go ,i reali missed d days. if i was given a chance 2 travel through tym, i wil stil choose u.

starting a fresh new dae.

2007-05-20T01:45:00.000+08:00

ltr goin 2 bugis wif my fren, to buy a present for my bday fren . feelin reali bored nw . jus finsh my breakfast. the weather todae is quite sunny. my 99 harts bottle is stil wif mi .. nw nd 2 plus 51 le. wanted 2 giv 'him' d bottle de tgt wif d ring. bt hahas jus se bu de bahz. d ring has been wif mi for 10 months le. ytd recess tym planned to go 2 his class to giv him bt half way tot hahs i turn back... duno for wat reason... den aftr sch i msg him to meet mi outside d lib , bt he didnt turn up so i went outside his class waitin for him. he walked away wif his frens whn he saw mi. at tat moment i understand d whole story , so i walked away wif d bottle in my hand. it was d last present im givin him i tel myself bt hahas guess tis present wil nt b delivered le bahz. 1 mor wk left n im leavin s'pore. i reali dun wish 2b in harm for him anymor. so i decide to step out of his life.mayb its oso a tym for us to take a break.aftr all tis, haahs im feelin reali tried le bahz. if tis is his chioce thn i tink i shld respect it.

life changed.

2007-05-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

todae i gt back my phy paper (37/50), math paper 1 (47/60) , paper 2 nt yet noe. ss (9/30), hahas i failed. i was being mistaken by 'him' bt no1 noes onli felicia ,she blives mi n noe tat wat i was sayin is true.i was being mistaken to flirt wif my class de malay bois hahas. todae while i was walkin 2 my math classroom , 3 of my class malay bois went up 2 mi sayin tinks lyk , u gt so high marks surely gt cheat wan lah, copy other ppl wk, change ans de lah. i didnt cared abt thm much as i tot all tis is nt true so i jus smile back. thn dey begin sayin dey saw ' HIM',which i dun blive. so i jus said 2 thm dun lie . bt whn i turn over , i realise wat dey r sayin its true. i was hapi 2 see him bt at a lost, duno wat 2 do so i jus hurried to my classroom. aftr my math class i was tinkin of msgin him n tell him d gd news tat i gt top for both math n phy. bt whn i turn on my hp,i saw a msg frm 'him' which says tat our frenship end tis moment. i told myself nt to cry whn i step into my class bcos i noe i cant afford to cry anymor. so i jus went 2 my sit quietly.my frens begin calin mi to join in wif chat as dey tot tat i was being ps by thm. i started to rpy his msg by askin him y n tellin him tat i gt top for phy n math as i tot tat its bcos of my results tats y he's tellin mi all tis.he replied mi n says tat its nt bcos my result n repeatin we r nt frens frm tis moment onwards.finally i lost my control of myself, tears started rollin dwn my cheeks.my frens being askin mi wat has hapn, bt i told thm nth.the bell rang n i went to find felicia for lunch as we agreeded on it ytd.she too knew nth as i onli told her tat mi n him are nt frens anymor.until he msg mi agn.. whr i started 2 cry agn..thn i told her everytink. she consoled mi by saidin tym wil heal everytink n perhaps he jus nd tym.she patted mi on my shoulder n said mayb cryin out wil make mi feel bttr.i cried continuously til my eyes were reali in great pain so i stopped. ltr we went to co for ur normal practise. i was wonderin ard to find a place for myself as tcher haven reached , bt everybody hav alreadi start practisin. i was d onli ppl takin a instrument called suo na . todae i told tcher tat i wished 2 change instrument bcos im havin too much stress n oso i dun hav d courage to take such a instrument. suo na its d loundest instrument in d whole co n im d onli 1 playin it plus if i played d rong tune,every1 wil noe n feared tat every1 wil blame mi for spoilin d whole song .bt tcher didn't agreeded abt mi changin instrument, he said tat i can play it v well n oso its a chance for mi to learn 2b confident in myslf as he always tot tat im lack of self-confident( bt tats true as he's nt d onli 1 sayin tat)in d end i choosed to stay at suo na as i dun wish to giv up so easily.although i noe i wil b havin a trough tym.and i wanted to learn 2b independent tis tym.

felicia and mi

2007-05-17T13:00:00.000+08:00

morning 7.30am... hahas i wake up .. thn on 8++ go on9 , on 10++ hav breakfast nxt go out wif felicia. todae actuali we meet at d busstop whr is 2 busstop b4 my sch bt ... -.- hahas drop dwn a busstop ltr. so bo bian hav 2 walk back a busstop distance bt nvm la hahas helps mi burn my fats.aftr meetin felicia we take 99 bus to a childcare centre as felicia say she is givin sumtink to her fren. nxt we went jp tot walkin hahas 'sweats' . reached jp ard 12++ thn decide to watch d movie called 200 pound beauty . so we brought d tickets n ltr we went to d pet shop haahs .hrm saw alot of cute cute de animals thr hahas n my fav doggie too bt hahas my fav husky being sold out le ... sob sob . at 1.35pm d show start . haahs its reali a vv nice show n oso hhaas alot of ppl cried too... lyk felicia ... nearli used d whole tissue box hahas. so aftr d movie felicia come my hse ... ard 6++ i send her home .. :)

mid-yr exams over le !!

2007-05-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

finally, all my tests are over le hahas . bt haiz 2dae de poa tink i wil nt perform so well le bahz ... inside d paper thr's 1 question tat cos mi 21marks n my paper is onli 50 marks. -.- plus tat question i nv do as i went for obs camp thn no ppl infrm mi abt tat . its so unfair !! i dun even noe wats tat ... bt everytink is over le so thr's no pt for mi 2 tink abt it anyway , tinks wun change .hahas bt stil hapi tat paper is over. 2dae mi, jia min n karling went imm agn ... hrm as u noe psp., Unfortunately its being book by sum1 else . hahas so we went shop shop thn my hse. aftr karling left , mi n jia min went 2 play see-saw hahas thn swing . we stayed thr till 4 ++ so its a tiring dae indeed. so i walked home aftr d swing game hahas. halfway tot , hajjaz msg mi n asked mi whr am i , so i rpy and asked him whether he gt drink a nt ... its reali a hot dae. as his shop is jus opp he treat mi a drink hahas ^^ last tink of d dae, i went home.

cousins outin (^!^)

2007-05-14T00:50:00.000+08:00

ltr... meeetin my cousins at je for sipderman 3 ... hahas yey!! long tym nv go watch movie le ... hrmmm tmr is math paper nxt on tues is poa paper ... hahas all nv study ( die die le ...) oh!! n todae is mother's day hahas so im goin 2 reach thr earli for my mama de present n ... find a bottle for my 86 harts folded. haiz actuali wana fold til 99 de bt ... run out of straws thus nd 2 go n buy straws le ... sianzz ...dun b mistaken !! all tis harts is nt for my mama ... bocs im goin oversea frm 30/5-12/5 thn on 13/5 goin star cruise :) tink i wil b missin him bahz... so all tis straws... hahahs is d last gift i giv him bahz ...tot tat on tat day mayb i could c him in d airport ... hopefully bt haiz he tat day gt oral ... sob sob

studyin ..

2007-05-13T13:48:00.000+08:00

today... i went to library to study wif jia min , xin ying. thong leong n ju ying hahas. i reached je lib at 11.30 as mi,jia min n xin ying decide to meet thr for ur lunch 1st , bt .. -.- it turn out tat i reach thr on tym bt i was d onli ppl thr. 15 mins passed, jia min came thn 5mins ltr xin ying came. so we went to je de kobayashi for ur meal hahas bt we turn out late to meet thong leong ... so poor thong leong waited thr for 5 mins .. thn come find us xD ... aftr ur meal ,we went lib for studyin ... study study study !! hahas , nxt ju ying come join us ... at 3 mi, jia min n xy went popula n thong leong , ju ying went for their dry swimming at thong leong hse hahas . mao mao .. as ususal, went slpin aftr reachin home haha ...

fun-filled day

2007-05-12T09:41:00.001+08:00

on 11 may mi, jia min, kar ling and ee ting went 2 imm. hahs 1st we go to eat la mian ( which cost mi $12++) hahas hart broken .. nxt, we went 2 shop shop . thn , we went 2 best denki to play psp hahas. haiz bt im d poorest 1 lor... cos i dun lyk all tis tink ma... so bo bian mus stand thr c thm play for 1 hr ... hahas leg pain . bt in d end i oso end up playin hahas. at 3+pm jia min come my hse , ee ting n karling went city link hahas. so everytink was quite normal ^^ heez nth went rong.

i will learn to luv u

2007-05-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

tym passed fast , real fast. it has been 2 months n 14daes since i break wif him . through all tis tym .. i wished to thx my frens hu is always being thr for mi whn i nd sum1 for acc. thx my frenz !! n especialy felicia :) ... u reali wake mi up ... sry tat i cant 4gt him n concentrate on my studies bt i wil try my best 2 gt gd results . i wun let u dwn . through all tis tym i learnt tat luvin him , thr's alot of ways , nd nt always b holdin on to him n lettin him by yr side ... i wan him to be hapi... i wana see his smile. i wil learn to let u go. in d past, i always dun hav d guts to walk away frm wat we had ... bcos i noe tat u wun come back for mi. i noe u are nt d rite shoe for mi bt i stil choose 2 wear tis shoe even tot it hurts my leg bcos i hav been wearin it since i bought it.and dun wish 2 change 2 a bigger shoe size as i always tot tat it is d best shoe for mi.my feelin for him increases as days passed by.. one day, i lost my shoe... im lost n confused. i duno wat to do n tink tat thr's no way i can go home without my shoe bcos i hav always b dependent on him. so i waited n waited 4 my shoe 2 come back even tot i noe it wun. until 2 months n 14days ltr, i decide 2 walk home without my shoe. i learnt 2 put dwn my pride n tink tat mayb i can find a bttr shoe tat i can fit in comfortably. thus, i walked proudly home without my shoe... on d way i met alot of obstacle n hurt my legs. bt i stil walk home proudly wif a smile on my face bcos im proud of myself, im proud tat i hav d courage to do tat thn others.im proud tat i can walk away frm my past n start all over agn, rather thn waitin meaninglessly. i learnt to b strong, independent and oso d memorises we shared 2gther ... i wun throw thm away jus bcos it reminds mi of my past.. instead i wil face it n treasure it .. as i noe he wil b the only guy i wil luv in my life n the last too . if you reali luv sumtink, set it free. if it comes back,its yrs . if not thn it wasnt meant to be.

fun trip wif j-min n xin ying ..

2007-05-09T08:06:00.001+08:00

todae aftr my hist paper , went out wif j-min n xy for breakfast at mac. hahas thn aftr havin ur breakfast we went imm. haiz bt alot of shops still nt open yet .. hahs so i invited thm to my hse as imm is jus a stone throw away distance frm my hse.at my hse hahas tym passed v fast... ltr on,we went jp wif bus 187 for ur lunch. bt tinks arent always rite on mi ... we saw lots of crockcroachs n tat reali scares mi alot. poor xy being squeeze by mi as they come closer hahas. at jp we had ur lunch at bento box hahas. erm miss d food thr. especially d soft shell crab its reali nice n d pizza too. lastly.. hahhas thx xy n j-min i reali had fun ytd :) n j-min dun wori abt mi le .. i hav cried enuff nw its tym 4 mi 2 smile ^^

missed the days

2007-05-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

it was saturday evening, i sat dwn infront of d computer tinkin wat shld i do nxt.memorises started 2 engulf my mind agn.he opened the door in my heart and left his footsteps without closing the door. im findin another key tat can close my door back,thn i realised tat thr's only 1 key for my door. the key was the key tat once opened my door.i hav d key back, i didn't go out of my door, instead i locked myself up wif my memorises.as dey stay wif my 4ever and reminded mi i was once the happiest gal in tis world.

no wrds are spoken.i hav tried my best.

2007-04-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

he's my 1st bf tat let mi noe wats luv. i found hapiness wif him even whn im jus standin bside him. i can hav nth bt nt him. i nv regret knowin him. i nv regret luvin him. tym wun change d feelin i feel towards him cos he's already a part of mi. i wanted 2 let go of him bt i cant althought i hav already broke up wif him. i cant control myself.. i called him even whn i noe his o levels is comin. he didnt blame mi . i missed him. i tried studyin 2 4gt abt him bt i cant study. my mind is full of ur memorises. i dissapointed my tchers. as i used 2 be a every subj top student. tis is only possible cos he was by my side. i noe wat he wan 4 in ur relationship was nt jus my dependent on him. i noe im runin away frm probs, bt wat else am i left wif 2 protect myself against all tis probs? my hart is broken. im lost . im confuse . im waitin 4 him 2 save mi frm the dark . im stil waitin even thought i noe he wil nt come. i stil cal him even thought i noe he wun pick up my cal.

my 1st post .

2007-04-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

erm... tis is my 1st post.hahas wat 2 say neh??? ok im a gal,nw studyin at jvss.hart broken... recently jus broke up wif my bf.15 yrs old.wanted 2 study bt my mind jus went off wif d mermorises .... stress!! stress!! stress!!